...faith for da faithed...

over the years..

2010-05-12T19:03:00.003+08:00

kinda lost myself for the past few days...dunno whether is it coz my da yi ma has been missing for months..or was it jus me..

gt damn emo tat day..cried for nothing..seriously nothing..when my hse mates ask me wat was it..i couldnt ans..i jus felt like crying..tears jus keep rolling down my eyes..did i menton i lost my temper tat 2 days..? tat day i didnt had a gd slp..slpt at 5..hse mates woke up at 10..than kept talking tat i woke up..in da evening..i tried to slp..than they keep asking me go gym which i refuse to..after which when they got back..they on da tv n was chatting n laughing quite loudly..i keep telling myself hw i can tell them tat i was disturbed..? so i jus went to da kitchen n tried my best to sound easy..but i tink it didnt work..coz they kinda silence down..haiz..nvm..another incident..i also dunno wat got into me..i cooked scramble egg..than i tot i was only cooking for me n boss...but end up they all tot was share except me..so it kinda make me look selfish..so i was kinda work up tat i got up from da chair abruptly n say i go cook again..n i tink they were kinda taken aback by it..

wat is wrong w me..? tired..?? emotional stress..?? oh perhaps i jus couldnt get use to being my rm mate getting closer w my other hse mate tat it seems tat im losing my fren..??

another 1..oh..i tink i say only 2..but here's another small incident..during da first bball match again in ni..i was kinda pull by opponent to make it like i charge her n was blown foul..i even gt scratch by her for tis..i got so mad tat i was scolding all da bad ass hokkian words...=X

i jus need to know tis ppl..over da yrs..did i change for da better..?? worst..?? or same..?? being temper wise..character wise...i try to be better..but i always seems to be da petty one..need to change...!!! haiz..shall try to stop holding grudges for a start..can i do it..??

new hse new sem new start...?

2010-03-29T08:57:00.004+08:00

its been 5 wks since back to aussie aka boring land..weird weather 3days sch new hse new hse mates new routine..so many changes..

weather..it has been raining more than it has combining all da sem tat ive been here before..it has start to look like im in sg..(or am i tinking too much?)..its autumn yes..shldnt it b sunny w wind rather..?? storm is kicking in..but lucky nt our area..too inland alr..nearest i tink is gold coasts..all da coastal area..so no worries..sch as usual..sad to say..hmz..=X

3days of sch..dropped my double major..im officially going to be a holder of bachelor in engineering (mechanical)..i tink it was a gd decision..be in study wise or money wise (as da dumb xchange rate went up again..)..nw..i only have 3 days sch..taking only 3 courses tis sem n 2 courses next sem..act next sem quite depends..coz of da stupid course tat i failed last sem..da triggering reason y i decided to act on wat ive been pondering on for some time..to drop da aerospace major..aussie..their r&d also nt tat great..y study so much of rocket science..jus open a damn space course n leave aero alone lar..pissed..or rather disappointed w myself..y cant i b better at programming..??? or rather wat happen to my momentum of study..? or is there 1 in da first plc..?

new hse..more exp rent..smaller rm..better location (as in nearer to sch..)..has made travelling to sch faster for sure..gd view of brisbane..top floor..sun n wind is our friend..overall its nt bad..jus tat setting up a hse is really an arse..all da connection fees (phone..internet..bond..electricity..hot water gas..!)..can kill alr..but its a secured building..so nt really worried abt theft..fully furnish so no worries abt furniture and white goods..quite well kept..all pics uploaded in fb..interested can go see..mayb i'll upload some here later..

new hse mates..our hse is officially a literally a regular hse..a hse full of regulars..3 army 1 navy..3 gals 1 guy..da pros of staying w a hse full of regulars are more for sure..no worries abt who to cook to wash to clean..all quite zi dong..jus tat "1 shall nt b named"..perhaps i alr gt a bad impression of "1 shall nt b named" even b4 we gt here..initiative is wat i like to see in ppl in force..nt to wait for others to do..simple stuff such as buying a phone for da hse hold also can push away..while da rest of us settle da hse lease..internet..phone..even hse hunting..haiz..nvm..its in da past..but coming here..? i started to tink whether is it im da petty one..using da hse car like her own..nt giving da owner of da car face..it could b a harmless "i drive wan a not.." but y cant jus let da owner drive..if owner need somebody to take over..driver will ask rite..? im in no position to judge ppl..but when "1 shall nt b named" goes out..no 2am wont come back de..dun understand where can u go ard here..n da fact tat "1 shall nt b named" wans to save money..but "1 shall nt b named" also unlucky lar..most of da time play mj will lose..tat day "1 shall nt b named" lost quite a large sum of cash in city..oh well..i shall b ease on her maybe for tis..

did i mention 4 of us r mj players..? tats nice abt having 4 ppl in da hse w a mj set..at least once a wk..n nw i have my own mj fund..=D since xh is going to grad in jul..we needed to find a new hse mate..or i can take over da rm but of coz da rent has to b cheaper than nw meaning rent has to b recalculated..but "1 shall nt b named"..best..ask my other hse mate whether willing to share rm w some unknown person tat other hse mate know but is "1 shall nt b named" fren..i mean sharing rm w ppl u know n ppl u dunno makes a diff lehz..coz we talking abt daily activities..living habits etc..of coz will feel uncomfortable abt it rite..? keep emphasising da fren is ok de..i go find some1 n ask u to share u wan or nt..dun wan rite..? tings u wont do..dun ask others to do..!

food..my maggie is almost gone fyi..sad..coz nw is spilt 4 ppl eat..i mean i cant b sell fish to keep everyting for myself rite..? tis kind of ting i dun do..but it jus finish fast..coz me n xh dun really have eat dnr habit..but they have..imagine during da first few wks "1 shall nt b named" everynite goes.."wat to eat for dnr..? maggie lar.." of coz will finish fast lar..da 2 pkts of herbal chix tat sis send me 2wks ago also gone alr..coz yest hse mate invited ppl who invited us da other day for dnr for dnr..niways..coz there's quite a no. of ppl..da herbal chix was mentioned n was steamed..of coz its nice..n nw i left w da suckier one tat my fren bought da other time..

getting bit emo nowadays..dun really make phone calls tat often anymore..afraid tat there's nothing to talk abt..i shld b happy tat ppl r still hanging out..but u jus cant help to tink..wish im there..n nw tat i share rm back w xh..n tat our calling means has been change to skype..n w hsemates tat only has sch on 2 days..its a bit difficult to call in pte..n at times where ppl r convenient to talk..xh is talking..as she doesnt have hd phones n w mic..i offered to lend her mine..since i seldom use..n nw a days..she make calls everyday as da skype subscription we share enable us to make unlimited calls back to sg..

hasnt really been slpin well..no matter hw tired i make myself at nite..to slp at 3 plus 4..i still wake up early..or get woken up easily...sickening..

random picked pics of hse..

.:main entrance (unit on top left):.

.:balcony w nice view of brisbane:.

.:my side of da rm:.

思念是一种病很高兴你们都全愈了

2010-03-14T13:46:00.002+08:00

思念是一种病很高兴你们都全愈了。。。

很高兴能成为你们生命中的过客。不论是重要的还是不重要的，停留时间长的还是短的，有贡献的还是是祸害的。最重要的是你们都全愈了，也到达了幸福的终点。这才是最重要的。

我很替你们开心，也替你们高兴。珍惜身边的一切。幸福是你们辛苦挣取到的，不要轻易的放手。

还没到达终点的别灰心，我一直都会在这里陪伴你们到最后。

幸福我们要的幸福在不远处。。。。。。

back in da scolarly land of aussie..

2010-03-02T11:08:00.003+08:00

hey peps..yes..im back yet again..hopefully for da last time..wrong..it will b da last time..!!

first..i would like to thanks all who sent me:
ALL my family members..!!! dad mum da jie da jie fu er jie n nt forgetting my cute little niece chevuan..=D
attitudez (less tat dumb dumb)..clar kai pei ting pc..=))
heartbond (those who r still in sg)..ck wj teck chun hui mx raymond eve smurf grace..=))
dare..jh helyn..=))

n of coz those who cant make it n sent me sms..jason cg yen shun yin ren..(seriously hope i didnt miss out anybody..coz i dun have my tat phone w da sms-es w me..=P)

flight was ok..first time tat i slpt da most..perhaps its due to da turbulence tat was occurring during most of da flight time..brekky was nt even served due to safety reason...tmd..they could still give us vouchers volunteering instead of asking us to go ask da gnd crew for it can...haiz..was super hungry when i got out of custom..lucky new hse mate came to pick us up..

went to da new hse..nice..nt bad..but da rm me n xh sharing is a...bit...small...ahz....pls wait till i get internet at home before i post up da pics..lazy to bring da photos to sch n upload ahz..(oh..did i mention it has been raining non stop since i came here..?? yeah..its raining..drizzling most of da times but slightly heavy at times n windy all da time...)

went to grab brekky at indro than bought groceries..fridge n kitchen cupboard is super empty..have to fill them up rite..?? wahaha..=D first brekky back here...hungry jacks's toasted wrap..

went home n almost immediatly went to move our stuff from our fren's place back to our hse..n when i had so many stuff tat da new rm can hardly fit..?? oh ya..my old rm was much bigger..n cheaper..oh well..tats da price u gotta pay for staying near sch..lucky its on da top flr but unlucky tat we had to move so many stuff up can..!?? hands ached da next day lor..=(

went to sch to settle some admin stuff on mon..check out da sch com..omg..all changed to mac can..w super big monitors..n super sleek keyboard..shall upload when i get internet at home..=D nw we noe where all our sch fees gone to...hmz...

k k..abt time to go look for lecture to discuss abt da thesis title..hope i get him as my supervisor..! *cross fingers* gym later too...target to lose all da weight gain since commissioned..!!!!! ciaoz..

if only..

2010-01-22T11:31:00.003+08:00

there is alot of ifs in da whole.."if only i have done this..if only i had agree to it..if only i had rejected.."

been telling myself to..let it go..let them be..but end up..i start to trigger my own panic button..today..if only i had agreed to it..i would nt end up cancaling it..make 3 ppl unhappy..2 ppl pissed..1 ppl nan zhou ren..

dun feel like doing anything even when im going to bkk tmr..

da kite is flying higher..da line is pulling tighter..it feels like it will snap anytime..it wans to fly away..freedom is wat it yearns for..

i jus want to b happy...............life is simple...dun complicate it..

way.....outdated post...

2009-09-21T09:37:00.003+08:00

hey hey..im nt dead yet..no worries peps..jus tat ive been too lazy to update my blog..wanted to do 1 after i come back from hob-mel trip..but too many tings to do on hand coz sch started shortly after tat..oh well..heres a brief update of wat had happen since da last post..

after exams..i mean literally rite after my ppr..attitudez gals came..!! haha..xh help me fetch them from airport n send them to sch to meet me..!! omg omg omg..haha..was super excited tat i rem walking darn fast to da carpark to meet them lar..haha...super duper happy to see them lar..bu kuei shi wo de hao jie mei..came to aussie to visit me lor..=D tks gals..it was really fun..they slpt over at my hse..bit squeezy but it was all fun no complains..somemore its winter..more cosy ehz..it was really a short 5days lar..i tink we had too much fun alr..tat 5days past so fast..we went lone pine..movie world..surfers..city..west end..n tats pretty much we can squeeze in..wanted to go watch movie drink coffee..but no time no time..time flies so fast tat its time for them to go back sg alr..haiz..than gt the kai incident..she didnt get onto the flight same as da gals..haiz..long story..shall nt get onto it again..so gotta spend a few more hrs w her..lucky..but i tink i gt damn emo after they left..tat i called my sis complaining tat y didnt i take up mum's offer to go back sg..haiz..oh well..

a few more nuah days at home and i went for a trip to hob (orginally)..n ended up going to melbourne as well..with my 6days of clothes..haha..which i survived w for 14days..=D nice..~~ pics can be seen in my fb tat is..limited quota ah..ps..cannot upload so many stuff..it was really a darn fun trip..ting da 2nd most fun i had since ive been to aussie..1st was for sure when attitudez gals came..went on the trip w mx n her hse mates..it was da coldest i ever been in aussie..be in da cold temp in hob or da chilly winds in mel..omg..nearly dieded can..haha..but it was fun..went to see snow..!! for da first time..i even made snow man during the skiing trip@ mel..=D had lots of booze too..haha..=p cheap in aussie ma..n its nice..pics again..can be seen in fb..n pics tell a thousand words..

tis sem is darn siong lar..i nv stayed in sch tat late before..imagine going home from sch at 1am..darn scary lar..no cars on da road..n darn quiet somemore..>_< projs assignments quizes lab reports..they r nv ending..every wk sure gt at least 2 of these due..cant breath alr lor..super lack of slp......gpa is gonna really suffer tis sem..haiz..

oh..my latest addiction..haha.. KO 3an guo..!! super duper nice to watch..!! funny interesting..dunno wat else to say..haha..n its nt even finish yet...kai only manage to pass me ep1-16 when she was here lar..coz da rest nt out yet..nw out till ep30 n i had to buy quota from sch to watch lor..!! imagine hw super addictive it is..dong cheng wei xiu is so 帅！！！his guitar skills are superb lar..n da songs in da show is darn catchy n nice too..guo ai is from x family..resang by patsy..but both version r gd..than gt lei le..n not forgetting xiu sing 以战止战..while watching at home cant laugh so loud lar..than i almost gt inner injuries..than when i watch in sch my fren tot i siao siao..y keep smiling at myself..haha..=P who can be such a kind soul to send me ep 17 onwards..?? i nid my motivation...O_O

oh ya..my laptop power adaptor up car lor..angry..tat day after finish rushing da assignment in sch at near to 1am..while keeping my lappy..i start to hear beeping sound from the power box lar..than it stops charging my lappy..!! immediatly went to ebay to get a new one lor..n it jus came today...haiz..been sharing w xh..lucky can use her adaptor..but batt cycle...maybe its a hint to...~~~?? =X no money...!! stupid exchange rate kept going up....~~~~

pardon me..but tis post is a super concentrated post..haha..so lots of details nt inside..whoever chat w me regularly shld noe more than these ah..haha..feel free to help me add on ehz..

long long updates...

2009-07-02T15:51:00.009+08:00

hey peps..haha..hasnt been updating my blog for a super long time..so ps..was bz w exams..n of coz bz having fun rite after exams..n nw tat all exams n fun r over..im super free to type tis super outdated updates of me..

exams was killer..at least 1 of them r..thermo is so going to get me killed..high chances tat is it..exam weightage is like 55%...? n my ica weightage of 45% i only scored like wat..20+%..? arghz..really put my heart n soul in studying for it..(ok..maybe nt tat hardworking..but more than other modules for sure..) gt my arse working da min study wk started..though was districted here n there w my shows..haha..ops..=X but i manage to complete wat i wanted to study..completed e ppr..at least i wrote someting for all the questions..n pray tat my tikam chances r gd..=P da rest of da exams r ok..stats is also another one..so feel like strangling da lecturer..he chu stunt can..so many theory Qs unlike past yr pprs..nv really prepare for them can..tot he will come out more of calculations..nice lor..i still hoping can score dist for it lor..nw get 5 i happy enough le..haiz..but i still hope..results on wed 8jul..dooms day..enjoy while i can..

rite after exams..i meant practically rite after..da gals came to sch to meet me..tks to xh help me fetch them from airport while im still having my ppr..ran str to da carpark when i saw da car coming from far..tats hw excited i was..seeing my sistas after 5months..n them flying to aussie to find me..(n to tour ard of coz..they went syd before coming to brissie n they went skydiving..hw cool is tat...!) went so many plcs..uni..harbourtown..surfer paradise (which was nt in da itinery at 1st..till they mention they want go hardrock cafe...but was gd..get to see da ocean..at nite..=P)..city..movie world..ian's plc (he was having his grad party..or so..)..lone pine..west end..indooropilly..had so much fun..hasnt had so much fun in such a long time..uploading my pics on da fb..too many to share..but here's 1 we took at da airport..we all bought loney tunes shirt at movie world..! =D

really had so much fun..i tink at 1 pt we were making so much noise tat xh woke up early in da morning..haha..imagine us..jus wake up only..making so much noise liaoz..really laughter non stop..oh did i mention they helped me brought over stuff from sg tat weighted 17kg..? haha...=P lucky there's 4 of them..hehe...thanks gals..they gt me maggie..toiletries tat my mum bought..stuff tat my sisters bought for me too...=D too many stuff happen to blog over..

kai gt stuck at da airport on da day of dept..she wasnt able to fly back w da gals..as pei n her was on staff tickets..both of them were on standby at first..but pei dad gt her bc..so she had priority..she manage to get on da plane..but than..for kai...there's tis family of 8 who cut queue..she overheard their conversation w da station master tat they org only had 2 ppl bked on tat flight..da rest was on da afternoon flight..but they asked da manger to get them on da morning flight instead..n hence..perhaps due to da seniority..they all got onto da flight..causing kai's chance of boarding da flight..i mean..tats ridiculous lar..if da rest of them r bked on da noon flight..hw can they be put on da morning flight..? taking chances of ppl who actually was bked on tat flight..? too much..when da family was walking away i caught 1 of da younger of them turning back as da manager was telling kai to come back for da 1445hrs flight..looking guilty..arghz..they ought to be..end up kai went home w me first..since its still early..like 9am..? she was told to go back at 1315..had to return da car also..so we ended up going home..return car..rest a while..than go airport again..lucky when we got home my ll still at home..borrowed their car to send kai to da airport..after checking in..went to get lunch at subway..(btw..we had subway for breaky also..haha..but tat was da cheapest n most full stuff ard..) n when we jus took like 2 bites..they called for early gate open..kaoz..n we gotta pack our food...was super duper sad when they left..imagine i had to go airport twice to send them twice..was double sad lar..cried like mad on da way home..have to kept wiping my tears so tat i can see da rd..so dangerous..=X reach home called my sisters..telling them hw regret i am telling mum tat i dun wan to go back..tat its better to stay here..save money..(but its true..i gt so limited sg dollars nw..if i had headed back in july..nov when i go back i eat air till pay day..) so depress..when i see my rm..i kept imagine 2beds filled w 5 gals..busy chatting away..when i see da empty rm where they placed their luggauges..i kept seeing 4 gals packing their lugguages..when i look at da toilet..i would see my sink top filled w bags of toiletries..haiz...=~( y did i tink tat i can survive w/o my frenz..!?? suck it up..tis is only da tip of da ice berg..i cant imagine when xh goes back in june next yr leaving me here alone for half a yr more till grad..!!! im so dead...

these few days has been quite fullfilling..w all my shows..haha..kai n pei brought me new shows..luckily..but i quickily finished grey's s5 on tues..i mean i tried to slow down..do some hsekeeping..wash clothes..dry clothes..vacum..wipe..cook..org n pack my notes..but i still finish it..even went to service my scooter yest..which i waited for 6hrs..!! which i walked ard city n fortitude valley...sitting down occassionally when i find a nice place w not much ppl walking past so tat can read twilight..(i knew someting like tat would happen..so bought my psp along..lucky..)..i even went to get a brochure on sight see walking tour for city..found some really nice buildings tat da gals n i could have visit if we had more time to walk ard...so gals..these r some tings tat u missed while u r here..used my hp to take da pics..so imagine all da time i had..jus walking ard..it feels sad too..walking ard alone..jus imagine shopping urself in orchard..w much lesser ppl ard u..n much lesser things to see tat u can actually buy...

this is actually a power box tat we always see ard in sg..da ones near traffic lights..? theirs here r decorated..=D this is one of my favs..

gals..tis is for u..since u all say we nv go chinatown..but believe me..there's nuting much here...except chinese rest n supermkts..which is needed by ppl like me when they r desperate for a taste of hometown..haha..=P

most of these i tink r churches..but quite nice..i like ancient buildings..remind me of europe..which i nv go before..haha...oh well..da vinci code and angels n demons provided quite an insight in nice churches..which i find them beautiful...=)

i have nuting but time..tis is wat i kept telling ppl nw..haha..so peps..nuting to do..go online n find me n chat..=D n i still gotta rem to change my flight for da mel tat i org intended to go w mx n her frenz..still going hobart though..if nt ppl complain say i keep staying at home no wonder become so depress...=P

plans till end jul..

2009-06-02T10:50:00.002+08:00

oh well..gotta have some motivations for upcoming exams rite..?

15-23 jun exams..!!
23-28jun attitudez gals visit..!! (love u all babes)
14-25jul touring of aussie w mx fab n gang..(hob-mel-bne)

last but nt least..its a short 1 month hols..so..sch starts on da 27jul...hopes nuting goes wrong in between..!

new hse..new transport..bad luck..?

2009-05-22T20:45:00.005+08:00

hey ppl..! i suppose u all have heard..have seen..have known..tat ive moved hse..!! haha..abt talking abt for so long..i finally moved..its was tiring..hectic..but its gd to have ur own rm..(of coz when i get new bed...!) hehe..me n xh spilt the old furnitures tat we had org in our room..i tink via scissors ppr stone..? (oh well..we always does tat when we couldnt decided to eat which one..do wat...or take wat..fair ma..) pics of our stuff packed..or packing..n my old rm...and of coz..when u hand over the rented hse back to the agent..we nid to do spring cleaning..!!

after we move over..still gotta go back n cont cleanin lor..but luckily gt class..(hehe..=P) my landlord and landlady did most of the cleaning..but we cleaned the whole kitchen lor..which i tink was the most dirtiest..coz its very oily..the cupboard lar..everyting was greasy..we got a hard time cleaning and scrubbing them off..coz my landlady doesnt have the habit of cleaning and wiping the kitchen after cooking..and she like to use alot of oil..so wat u tink..?

went to get a scooter..oh well..when u move so far away..like 12km away from sch..n when u nid to take a train and a bus to reach sch..u gotta find a way to travel to sch at the shortest time possible rite..? and da solution..? a cheap n traffic cutting way of going sch..scooter..!! parking..? no prob..hehe..my fren gave me da idea tat i can park at their college (aka hostel)..free..! its jus another 5-10mins walk to lecture blk..but wat's tat few mins compare to 100plus bucks i gotta park for parking permit..? n nt confirm will get since there's only a few lots in da entire sch..i tink only gt like..4 places for m/c parking..? well..check out my bluie...(ms seah ask me to name it..so da only ting i can come up w is bluie lor..since its blue..haha..=P)

fell on da 1st day i gt it..was trying to get up a small slop leading up to my hse..couldnt control da brakes and accelarator properly..went to smash into da rubbish bin..haha..lucky no scratch on bluie..coz i tink tranfered to me..haha..gt a cut on my shine and cuts on my fingers..but alrite lar..after tat went to practise in da sch's multistorey cp fully protect w long pants and jacket and show..haha..scare alr...nw ok alr..can ride to home to sch..no prob..jus tat its nt as fast as the cars..but luckily..unlike back in sg..here da car does look after m/cyclist..they dun tail gate..so quite safe still..=D

shared bed w xh when we first moved in..coz landlord haven get new bed for me..went da next day though..to tis big budget furniture store near our place..gt my bed..gt xh's table and chair..was so worried tat they aint getting me a quilt lor...coz we told them..actually xh help me tell them tat i nid a quilt..coz its really cold here during autumn winter..initially she ask whether i mind taking the blanket they have tat was brought over from china (its those thick cotten kind..like chinese funeral they put letterings on it kind)..take tat first than wait till they go back china in aug than they bring over another 1...than i was thinking..wtf..? wait till aug..? winter over alr lor..i will be freeze to death by than lor..lucky da next day..i hinted tat i nid to get a table lamp..coz da rm is really dim..only gt 1 spot light..n they gt me a quilt..n they were quite gd..didnt get me da cheap cheap one..they gt me a gd one..sheep wool wor..haha..=P niways..tats one of da reason we move here w them..they r nice ppl..=D its a 2 way ting..they kept saying they dun wan to rent the hse to other ppl..so even if we dun wan to rent..they wont rent it to others..appearantly they like us so much..coz we r discipline..as in we clean up our stuff...keep our stuff neat n tidy..(sis..i am neat n tidy here k..!) n they nid us to help them hse keep during aug when they go back china..n most imptly..we gt licence they gt car..=)

oh ya..ppl keep bugging me to show them da interior of da new hse..didnt really go ard taking pics..so these r wat i have so far..my rm..haha..

rm size abt the same as the prev shared rm..jus tat nt ensuite..but both of us still share our own toilet n bathrm..(da bathrm n toilet r seperated..=D)

had quite a few bad days...internet n phone was down till today..from last wed till nw lar..n my sch quota was busted on wed..arghz..had to use my grp mate's one..n his was busted by me too..hehe..=P oh well..coz nw on thurs we will stay in sch from say 9-5..? coz after our lect from 8-9 we dun have any lesson till 12-1..than grp mtg from 3-4..than i had to wait till ard 5 to get home as thurs is da day we drive to sch coz we end sch late and its abt da time my landlord n landlady knock off..but i have to say..no internet made me study throughout the wkend for my quiz on mon and tues..though they were a mess..cross my fingers i dun do too bad...i nid da marks..!! expecially for thermo..hasnt felt me studying so hard since last exams..hehe..=P

mon i was locked out of my hse lar..!! clever me..went to lock da garage door after parking my scooter in da garage from inside..n ran out out da garage as i dun have da keys of da door leading to da hse inside da garage..i was only given the main door keys..n guess wat..i left da garage door remote inside..w/o realising my landlord act locked da gate door which i doesnt have keys to..!! wth..n xh is still in sch lor..n she takes abt 40mins to ride her bicycle back..!? waited for near 3hrs before xh came back lor..arghz..told them tat nite but da next day..da same ting happen...lucky i went home w xh..n tat nite..i made them gave me da keys to one of doors in da garage tat leads to da hse..aint staying out of my hse again..especially its getting colder..

tues n wed was hell..kept raining non stop..for 2 days lor..n it didnt get lighter..instead..it gt heavier on thurs...cold n wet...plus my brolly gave up on me on wed...one of da skeleton broke..haiz..wore my thicker jacket to sch..coz gt hoodie..n its gt all wet..soak through lor..was really sueh on wed also..took da express train in da morning..didnt get down at da right stop..went 2 stops ahead..n due to bad weather..da train took like at least 20mins before it came..? had to endure da splashing rain n cold wind..was late for tut but who cares anymore when u r all wet n cold..didnt bring my lunch to sch as i tot i could make it back in time to eat..who noes...my proj grp wanna meet at a later time..had no choice but to spend money n eat in sch..way home also power..when i reach da train station..they say train stop..! wth..da 1st ting tat came in my mind wat.."hw da h*** am i going to go home..?"..saw ppl still lingering outside da train station..so i tot..hmz..maybe tis happen often n train will resume in a while..so i waited..lucky for me..da train did resume in a while..faster went to take train before it stops again..wat a day...

haiz..gt to finish up proj report...!! tmr going my fren's place for bkt party..!! hehe..better be fun..i nid a break after so many tings happen after moving here...sch especially....report after report..quiz after quiz..its killing me..w exams jus rd da corner..i nid more oil..!! nt fats ahz..

counting down to da days da gals coming to visit...32days...!! waiting for u all........my motivation...

spider alert...!!

2009-05-03T20:40:00.004+08:00

hey hey..hasnt been blogging for sometime..my bad..there has been some stuff going on..or has went on..jus plain lazy to type so much..hehe..oh well..i shall start w da most recent which was wat prompted me to blog..

tis morning..was woke up by tis sms from sg (my hi card..n fyi..sun is da only day i can slp in late..!! n i was up at like wat 8plus..? when i slpt at 3am..!?? arghz..angry...) but..also tks to tis sms..i woke up..n found da following...(see the black tingy in da corner of da wall..)

SPIDER...!! kaoz..so big somemore la...scared lehz...wanted to ignore it but scare tat it will start crawling ard i will panic more..so i went downstairs to get my landlord to help..(coz xh was out in gym)..they came up equiped w baygone...sprayed n it started to run..n more spray until it die..!! really dunno hw it gt into da rm lor..we gt filters fixed at the balcony door n toilet windows alr..cant be from underneath da door rite..? forget it..aint tinking abt it anymore..if nt..tonite i cant slp..i wont slp..pls dun like me dream of spiders tonite..!! im nt harry potter...X_X

last wkend..was quite fulfilling actually..hehe..fri went to ian's place for steamboat..mahjong...sun went to play captain's ball w them..finally found some tings to do here..haha..it was really fun...truely enjoyed myself..always laugh so much when hang out w their grp...haha..its always nice hanging out w ur own ppl..as in singaporeans..they understand wat u're trying to say..they understand ur jokes..etc..nice..i always tot i will miss sg more during da 2nd sem here..but it wasnt as bad as i tot it was..i kinda..really gt use to it i guess..slow pacing..nuting much to do..(i have actually..w all my games..shows..bks..hehe...=P but study lar ahz..i am trying k..? dun wanna waste money n time...) exams r coming..dates releasing coming fri..hopefully i get da dates i wan...4 pprs spread..at least 2 days in between n finish before 23june..coz tats when da gals r coming to bne...

went to eat sizzler breakfast on sun too..haha..xh was bioing their eat all u can breakfast buffet at toowong...so we woke up 7am on a sun morning...to walk to toowong..n eat breakfast..n we sat there from when they start to when they abt to end..haha...typical singaporean..it was good though..lots of variey..better than sg de delifrance of coz..haha...eat till so full...give u guys a glimpse of wat we ate..

went to kmart after tat..coz xh wanna check out her bicycle..did i mention she's gonna cycle to sch..? she can..i cant..im nt so crazy..n i'll be dead tired after tat..its at least a 10km journey nt mentioning da super steep slopts along da way...saw twilight dvd can..so tempted to buy..shld i..? or am i getting any presents or rewards for surviving my exams..!? hehe..=P pls vote..to buy or nt to buy..first..coz i noe eventually i will own it..jus a matter of when to buy...n da price still nids to be consider..n it has gt to be da 2 disc special...haha...=D

moving hse next wk..11may..da only ting im worried abt is da dist between it n sch..haiz..really hate da idea of needing to take train n change bus to sch..its going to take me ages to do so..so..i am going to...buy a scooter...hehe..=P y nt a car..? since i can get 1 abt da same price range..but u see..car maintanence is going to cost more..especially such an old car w tat kind of price..i can get a brand new scooter w warrenty..getting bit nervous n worried abt spending so much..but its gonna worth it..i noe it..i will like it..n where can u get to ride a scooter w a car licence..? hehe..=P i will be more careful ppl..no worries..its jus sch to home..no heavy traffice along da way...a couple of turns n most str rds...=D n da scooter will be new..so no probs..cheap fuel gd transport..haha..i like..

did i mention we went bball on fri..? hehe..after skipping ex on thurs (coz my knee was hurting after wed long d run...was nt really conditioned..n i forgot to bring my knee guards...=P)..lucky gt ppl jio go play...nice..st bball was really tough here i tink..u gotta win da winning team tat is in da court so as to cont playing..i didnt went to play of coz..im nt their level k..? waited till we gain control of da court..as in nobody left except us playing..haha...went to play..sad to say i fell..wats new..da ting is tat their floor was nt gd..its like those ma lu kind of surface..gt some scratches n sprint my ankle abit..haiz..but it was gd..better than gym..so boring..haha..

ppl...tis is a need..if u have any nice recipe..pls dun hesitate to email it to me at dotsux@gmail.com..haha..im so bored tat im trying to cook up sg food..n ive been asking for curry recipe for days..where is it..!??

自作自受

2009-04-13T17:37:00.002+08:00

haiz..nuting much to update u guys abt..dun ting much ppl come read my blog nowadays anyway..hmph...=/

i admit...ive been super obsessed n once again been addicted to twilight series...!! haha..started to read twilight the novel tat my sis help me put into my psp...took some time to finish it act..from sg come here than finish it last last wk only..but than..i cont to read new moon...eclipse n finally breaking dawn in one breath...(as in yi kuo qi lar..) within days i finish da whole series..im so completely addicated to it tat i felt so kong xu after finishing it lar..i even huang fei xue ye can..haiz..

had a quiz on thurs..instead of studying..i gt so engross into breaking dawn at tat moment tat i only started writing my notes da nite before..*shake head* bad me...though i finish writing all da notes..i didnt have time to read them..when i went to da quiz..my head was competely blank..haiz..although i did write tings on da ppr..but im nt hoping much...

my mind kept craving for more..im so dead..so obsess w it again..!! i tot i die down after tat period...but it came back again...so cant wait for da movie...20nov09...so wanna get my hands on tat twilight dvd..but it aint out here yet...was telling jh whether i can get a early xmas present..haha..coz i noe sg out alr...=D haiz..trying my best nt to tink abt it so much alr lor..even watch band of bros..or slp early can..but still...arghz..my heart craves for more..!!! ive been twilighted..haha...=P dun have much heart to do anyting else can...n i realise tat im a hopeless romantic..X_X kept tinking da impossible...i tink tats wat ppl say..wat u cant get is wat u crave most..da kind of love tat they have in da story..dun even noe whether it exists in reality or nt..haiz...arghz...im alr 23..............................going 24.......................................................

xh say she most prop making a surprise visit back to sg during winter break..coz she wans to go visit her pregnent sister..nice...envy actually..gave it a tot b4 she told me actually..coz i dun have plans during da break..as i mite nt even get to meet da attitudez gals..even so..it will only be da first few days of da hols..w xh left..its only me myself n i..but i dun have da $$ to go back..oh well..i can imagine my routine during da break..slp..wake up..eat..watch show..slp..eat..watch show..haha..for da whole month..nice..

went harbourtown (jus a big shopping are in gold coast) n sunny bank tday..didnt even have da heart to shop..i really nid da addication to pass soon..coz i nid to study..whole head kept tinking abt edward n bella..kaoz..enough gal...even xh bought somethingS for herself can..i only got myself a $1 key chain..nice..n its been raining since morning can..!! wth...watever..im going back to finish reading da fan fic send me abt alice n jasper..hopefully i can finish by tonite..so i can start studying n perhaps reread da whole series again..!? hehe...=P

btw..its a wk sem break..plus it was gd fri last fri..so additonal 1 day off for da wk..happy belated holidays ppl..today is easter monday..!

byron bay

2009-03-22T18:12:00.003+08:00

went byron bay over wkend..to celebrate ian's bd...it was really a huge grp...abt 22 ppl went..rented 1xminibus and 2xmpv...

it's located in nsw..abt 2-3hrs drive away..ya..having said tat i tink we reach there in 2 hrs time..? and back was i tink even faster..? imagine hw fast they were driving on da road...hehe...safe safe..no worries k..? but it was quite fun..we had bbq by da beach..so cool..they gt provide aussie style of bbq pit by da beach..free de..any1 can use..its like a hotplate on stove..operated by gas...didnt really take pics of tat..coz wasnt really in mood to take pics..oh well..i tink his fren's took quite a few..hopefully will tag me in facebook...=) it was quite an experience..cold though i must say...luckily ian helped me borrowed a windbreak from his fren...=)

after da bbq..went back to da backpackers where 22 is sharing 16beds..hehe...had a few drinks..n im being labeled as da bottle opener as i manage to open da beer bottles without using an opener..tks to da dare..everytime see them open i also manage to catch da trick myself..hehe..=P learn hw to play bridge...though im still quite blur even when they tried to explain it to me...n played mahjong..! cool rite..? they brought mahjong there lor..haha..salute them...lost a doller..but its ok..its da playing tat matters...=D (i realise i kept losing these few times...hmz..=/) after tat squeeze on da bed trying to slp without tossing n turning...coz limited space ma..but appearantly i fall aslp n created quite a scene (though i tink nobody noe its me..=P n pls dun mention it..im already quite embressed by it...) made quite a loud noise..=( tat xh didnt slp due to space n noise constraint...but its a quite nap as soon enough we had to wake up to go catch da first light...which was part of our purpose there as well...

heard from ian its really beautiful...same prob when u have a big grp...time is always dragged..we went down first while waiting for da rest..was chatting w ian abt hot choc n da next moment ant n abang came out from da veh n ask whether wan to get hot choc..haha...such a coincident heh..than they went opp to tis 23hrs bakery to buy..while waiting for it..everybody came down..(imagine hw long they have take to make hot chocs for 20)..rushed to da lighthse...took a wrong turn but manage to reach there in time..i tink...didnt really get to see da sunrise though..abit disappointing..coz all da clouds covered it alr...haiz...its suppose to look like da sun pop out from da water...breathtaking..nvm..can go another time...took quite a few pics..n there they r..

had breakfast at tis cafe called balcony n went back...changed driver on da motoway..coz da driver was too tired..can understand..gt back safe n sound..n tired...bathed..surf awhile..n slpt from 1-6plus near 7..hehe..wanted to wake up to make dnr..but when alarm rang..i saw xh eating alr..so decided to head back to slp..hehe...=P overall da trip was fun..its been long since i hang out with such a big grp..n im lovin it..=D hopefully still gt next time so my sis can stop telling her frenz tat im a stay home gal here..!! (which i admit i am...=D)

attitude gals mite nt b visiting me tis jul..? coz appearantly i kept assuming tat i told them my exams end date...27jun..but actual fact is i didnt n ting took leave from 15-27..im so sry babes..u gals can carry on w/o me..can no nid come aus if tats da case...really...

most prob moving over to oxley w my landlord..coz of da cheaper rent n rooms for each of us..tat is abt da same size as da rm nw..jus no balcony...n da hse is really big...n tats when i struck me..whether i wan to buy car...hmz..hw guys..? make ur vote..car is cheap..but maintaining is another amt of money...if nt..i mite consider a 50cc scooter than doesnt nid bike licence..? i jus nid transport to go sch..!!

1st wk of sch...+mahjong..!!

2009-03-08T20:26:00.003+08:00

hey ppl...updates from the land down under yeah..

1st wk of sch is bored..i gt my timetable n i dun like...i gt sch everyday n everyday it starts at 8..!! wtf...sianz...though sch ends half day...usually at 1...but still..sianz to wake up so early everyday...though im train to..but ppl who knows me shld knows tat i prefer slpin in late ya...lects n nt gd also..mostly long lects...2/3 hrs lects..mostly...only a couple of 1 hr lect...imagine tat..n they r all of huge classes...really big..tuts r in form of lect too...so imagine tat...cant seems to get tings into my head tis wk...wat goes in..comes rite out on da other ear...nid to buck up n get da momentum back up ya...if nt gonna get some naggy soon...=P

its really hot hot hot here...lucky gt bring da shan zi here...cooler a bit..but nid to do some work by fanning myself...went swimming almost everyday..haha..coz hot ma...=P swim can cool down abit...but towards da end of da wk its better le ba...at least today its nt tat hot...at least i aint sweating at home like usual...

i tink like wat ppl say...we kan kai abit on da money portion..like more willing to spend abit more tat kind of ting..but still must control..watch out on the budget ppl...i still wanna go tour ard n learn diving ya...talking abt diving...was enquiring on da dive course at uq sports..but appearantly they say they dun do it anymore..ask me to check w da dive club...n guess wat..after emailing them in da morning..they replied me at 5.08pm to go look for them at 6pm in sch....kaoz..they tink im super woman or someting or i got nuting to do but hang out in sch n check my email every other min...? so last min who want to go sia..though i can make it lar...(i was at home at da pt of time n jus happen to check my mail) but bue gam wan lehz...send them a reply at 7pm..saying i jus checked my mail..but haven heard from them since..hmz..=/

fri nite gt invited to tis bbq...by our signal fren whom we only saw once during va brief back in sg..n exchanged msn...haha...its a gd gesture n since xh say she dun mind..we went...its a hse full of unfamiliar faces of sg..didnt really mingled w da big grp..stayed outside of da hse coz there's animals (dogs n cat) in da hse...n xh dun like them...hehe...=P nice bbq food...really nice..especially da wings..gt sg taste..haha...but they stay quite far from us...so lucky wing came to pick us n send us back home...

sat went mkt..as usual..with little to buy...but went indroopilly to get our supermkt stuff..although our aim is to go get ppr..(we're going to run of them soon...n we gt a gd deal da previous time we went there..) btw..its a bigger shopping centre ard da area..so ya...end up eating lunch/dnr n gt supermkt stuff only...ok..boring for u guys..its jus a typical groceries shopping for us...=)

went play mahjong today..! hehe..so happy..though i lost..but its sg style entertainment man...happy happy...tks to ian..=D imagine playing mahjong in tis foreign land..using foreign currancy...haha...its really all fun...

was telling myself..in order nt to let ppl back home worry abt me..my aim tis time round..nt only study hard...i also have to be more friendly..get out of da hse more often...n make more friends..i try la ppl...it has been a gd start...bbq...mahjong...n an upcoming see sun rise trip to nsw org by ian...but..i gotta finish my shows rite..? if nt wo na li tui de qi wo de dian nuo rite..? she's been working so hard for me in sg...haha...=P n...getting bit frustrated le...somebody (da person sit/slp/eat next to me...) keep asking me go run..yes yes i know..i jus dun like running..ive been working out..but i nid to clear ippt still...arghz...n i nid to lose all da goodies tat ive gained during da 3.5 happy months back hme...=D 10kg as bet w kl (asa frm mp br)...i will lose tat much before i go back end of da yr...=D

miss ya all peps..motivation tis sem..: attitudez (gals) visit end jun..!! cant wait..start planning ppl..imagine..xh alr looking for accomodation n bking air tics...=D where u gals..!? nv see u all online de lor...n sisters...hw's da batam trip..? hope u all had fun..nt forgetting...happy marriage solo n jocye coming wkend..! take care peps...dun 4get abt me hor...im here.........................always...sms me aus no./hi card no./singtel no. (yes..its still alive..sadly..st is slow at suspending..idiots...)..email...msn offline msg if im nt online...anyting..! loves..o_O

back at da shu xiang sheng di..

2009-02-28T16:26:00.002+08:00

hey peps..i've safely arrived in bne...

hmz..i can say qantas has indeed improved their service in terms of timing..took off in time...arrive can say on time lar..was abt 20mins late..coz they say heavy air traffic..my guess is the plane circled the air for a few rounds before landing..but all in all..it was a smooth flight..was i tink da last (i didnt see anybody behind me lar..) rushed my way to da gate w all da heavy stuff man..oh ya..did i mention i had to repack my luagguage at da airport..? coz i was like almost 20kg overweight..? haha...initial weight of my luagguage was 38.9kg when i only had 20kg bagguage allowance..haha..=P xi shen my chicken essences...1 txtbk...CHILLI...! haiz...bo bianz..toiletries here r exp..cannot forgo...haha...=D

tired trip..i can nv have a peaceful slp on da plane de lor..reach home..unpack...go sch...eat lunch (had tis fish&chips at st lucia village..nt bad..big portion though..as usual..)went coles to top up our food..n we pushed da trolley back home..! haha...coz we kept buying till it was quite heavy and hectic to carry home..imagine we have to go thru hills n slopes..haha..really hilarious..i wish i got tat in vid..muahaha...=P

was so tired tat da moment reach home..i surf abit..bath n slpt..from i tink 3plus 4 till nite 12plus 1 than i wake up..haha...really shagged out...watch show abit...chat abit...4plus 5 slp again..till abt 11am xh woke me up to go mkt..

hot hot hot..is all i can describe abt da weather here nw...hot n dry...took our time to buy all da stuff...came home..cook n eat lunch...feeling bit lethagic..dunno is it coz of da weather or my body still adjusting to da timing..or is it jus me being lazy..muahaha..=P

landlord bought a car..camery..guess da price..? abt 18,000aud...2yrs old..30,000 milage...cheap cheap cheap..!! where can we get such deal in sg sia...NV..! haha..n da ting he doesnt have a licence..yet..my land lady offered us to drive but dun tink we will touch it...n appearantly da hses they've been looking at recently r quite far from sch..hmz..high chances tat we wont be moving w them..sianz..hse hunting again..dun really like n troublesome...oh well..still nid to view hse for my sis's fren..see hw lar..

dread dread dread..

2009-02-21T16:35:00.003+08:00

hey ppl...

after 3months 13days of happy times...im going back to da shu xiang sheng di le...

its has been a restless period after cny...dunno y..it seems tat everybody ard me r getting restless as well...oh well...no ling gan to write stuff nw..so ya..as requested...details of my departure is as follows:

time: 2105hrs
venue: changi airport T1
flight: qf52

greet n take photo session will commence at 1945hrs...=D

back...for some time alr act...=D

2009-01-04T14:27:00.003+08:00

hey peps..im back..for abt a month plus alr act...hehe..nuting much to update..n also tat i've been busy mtg ppl..eating..working...eating...n more eating...haha..yeah..all ive lost in aus has been gained back..!!! =D

had a dream last nite..i jus felt tat i nid to blog abt it...

i guessed its all da talking tat ive been having w stt n kai...abt our relationships n stuff...though its a day after wat we've been talking abt...dunno y but i dream abt it a day after...it must have been a tinking deep down in my heart...a desire perhaps..

i dreamt tat r has ask me back..holding me tighter than before..dating...watching movie...n very much in l as before...i guess its wat da gals said...tat i have da best before...tats y its very unforgettable..n always want it back...missing da feeling so much...kept having da tinking tat im alr hw old..i jus wan a loving some1 whom i can love back...haiz...=( gaining weight..n losing my touch w l...wat worst can happen..? i still gt my frenz n family though..but i cant help to feel like an empty shell...

btw...i gt another abt 2 months before summer hols end n im going back for da next sem...exact date...26feb...2130hrs...

home swt home....not...akan datang..

2008-10-25T19:48:00.004+08:00

hey ppl...my return flight has been confirm...details as follows:

date: 13nov08
eta: 1930hrs sg time
flight: qf 51
terminal: t1

as much as im happy tat im going back..kinda feel a bit of shi luo gan nw...dunno y...kena shoot by sis say im depress of being here...im jus lonely k...?? as much as i tot i'll be making frenz but i aint..

tink me n rmie has been ren-ing each other...quite surprise tat i didnt flare during da period im here...hmz..maybe a couple of times raise my voice abit..but other than tat..dun tink i got angry or mad...got bit unhappiness but still can make do w it..i tink both of us r trying to tolerate each other...but i very scare ren nai shi you ji xian de...n i dun wish us to blow up...

sometimes..jus sometimes..i jus kinda feel kena look no up...from da way i was being treated..from da way i was being told off...watever...i try to tell myself i know who i am..i know wat i can do wat i cannot do...i know im lazy at times...but im trying ok...im nt like u...n i dun wish to be like u...watever...

exams coming..i better start studying...first ppr on da 6nov...2nd ppr 8nov..last ppr 12nov..only gt 3 ppr...da other course no final exams..purely on the essays..which mostly helped by yuyu..who took da effort to look thru n edit nice nice both my 1000 and 2000 words essay..which r da longest bloodest essays tat i ever gonna write....tks babe...

gonna so x_x next yr...nv tot i would be so homesick...if only i made frenz...sometimes i tell myself...btw..next wk is study break...

so far away...

2008-10-14T22:58:00.000+08:00

忽然间　我们被沉默包围
有种感觉无法形容　但很美
一瞬间　忘了爱曾让我心碎
这默契取代不安的氛围
让我勇敢爱　不后退

So Far Away
一路寻觅多少回　爱最后不知所为
身边仍然是空位

So Far Away
受的伤究竟为谁
过去在心中积累　谁体会
原来身边就是你 {原来一直都是你}

Not Far Away
猜想你　此刻心里想着谁
你总微笑甩甩头发让风吹

你是谁　带走夜里的漆黑
留下一整绽的星空　让我沉醉
才明白幸福　并不远
曾经梦想完美的爱情
其实并不存在　当我看着你
灵魂揭晓答案

counting down to exams = counting down to home

2008-10-14T18:49:00.004+08:00

the time has finally come...home is nt far away..but da stupid exams r being slam between me n my beloved changi airport...muahaha..

last wk was a hectic...stomach filling...fun...filled days...xh's fren came over to visit her..so we decided to rent car so tat its easier to travel ard...act nt tat exp....cheaper tat sg tat is..plus da exchange rates has been quite low recently...went to hug koala bear @ lone pine...and went to movie world..!! dun worry gals..when u all come over next yr..we still can go again..muahaha...most of da pics r in fb..so guys..pls do myself a flavor to see da pics there k...? hehe~

so addicted to fated to love you tat i watch da entire series online...!! risking my quota...but lucky nv..n its coming to da end of da month for da package...its so nice lar...lame...funny...but still at da same time...da power of ou siang ju...romantic...so make ppl wanna go tan lian ai..muahaha...=P hmz..can consider buying when i go back go sg..still got lan qiu hou...feng mi xing yu cao...so many shows..!! nice nice...but nw is da time to resist such temptations...told myself tat i cant watch anymore online shows once im done w ming zhong...need to study...!! left 2000words essay to conquer...and a design poject to finish...jia you ocs...haha..

so nt gd at my design course lor..arghz..didnt manage to score will in da online tutorials...da last proj my grp also didnt really score tat well..tink exams i pass i bery happy alr...although its mostly mcqs...but their mcq can kill de...kaoz...plus da lect always rd off da no. before multipling...hai my ans i must always tink whether rite or nt..coz quite off from the mcq ones lor..

hmz..after some consultation w da gals...i did someting which i nv tot i had da courage too..n appearantly stt is rite..after so many yrs..we're jus frenz..n after i did..i act felt better...didnt tink so much...manage to chat as well..though it was a short one...but at least i know we're on talking terms..though it was me who rejected when first approach da last many yrs ago...finally can put my tots to rest n concentrate on exams...come to tink of it..part of who i am was build up from there...i like pigs stuff lar..enjoy cycling ard da island lar..study abit maybe..oh well..ppl grow and change..nt only me...appearantly there's some changes over tat side too..dun feel da same abt there anymore..someting i see n felt is diff..or am i too sensitive..? over da yrs..i did tot of wats da feeling abt me...? but try nt to tink so much..coz its none of da concern anymore of me..have no rites to bother perhaps..but am still quite pissed when i saw what i saw..dunno y also..hmz..but as long as its nt who i tot it is...any other person is fine...!! muahaha...evil...

act there's so much i wanted to type..before i started...all da words were in my mind...but when i started typing..i kinda got lost...dunno wat to say...oh well..will add more when i recall...miss home..miss my family..poor chev is having a fever lar..hope she getting better n sis..u better start teaching her hw to call yiyi...im coming back k..u got 1 more month left only..!! muahaha...n of coz i miss all my frenz..ppl..u can start planning for our trips...heartbond kl trip im in...attitudez..have u all decided le ma..? n my poly frenz seems to be lost in transaction...dunno where they go can..all so quiet...must be exams coming also...haiz..sometimes im glad tat i cant get into local uni..hehe..gd luck guys...!!

part 2 of whining n blogging...

start to like walking back home from sch...(dun really look 4ward to walking to sch coz most of da time cant take my time n stroll lar..i mean those who know me shld knw..but better le k..im nt late...its only very on time..) can take my time..slowly walk..plus nw da trees start to grow nice purple flowers...can xing shang...listening to songs..n perhaps sort out my tots..been tinking too much lately..hmph...

is it really "there's nuting i can do abt it..?"

2008-10-02T21:25:00.005+08:00

hmz..its term break...suppose to be more hardworking..(as planned..but u know..tings dun always go as u plan..haha...excuses...=/) but...i've became as nua as ever...

maths...dunno hw to do...forget it...put one side...major assignment due on da 1st day of sch start...dunno hw to do...forget it...put one side...tutorial...? hmz...can consider...try ahz...(today..thurs...than i take out n try...see lar...wat "gd student i am...") dunno wats gotten into me...

was telling cy on msn...my mind kept drifting n drifting..dunno where it wans to drift to also...there's nuting at home...i even tried to stop using the com in da day...but...but...i stood up after doing a few questions..n start wondering n walking ard the hse...the next door neighbours..abnn..hasnt been home for wks...was telling xh...did someting happen to them...? dun wait we suddenly get smelly smell...so..today...i was so bored...i took a chair...n climb up to look over their fence to see if i can spot any clues in their yard..or hoping they nv draw da living rm curtains...tink im going mad...home sicking mad...

been tinking abt home alot lately..tink im really getting da sickness...arghz...shit...if 5 months can do tis to me..i cant imagine next yr when da 9months come n embrace me...s**t...was telling kai...if they seriously cant make it to visit me..i'll save n scrimp n buy myself a ticket home for da july hols...haiz..

spring is here...n weather has been bit crazy...its hot hot hot in da day...but sometimes...it can be very cloudy w no sun n strong cold winds...my face is getting from bad to worse..alr bu hao kan..but nw..is bu neng kan...so many yi li yi li on my forhead can...tried tying my hair..but my fringe nt long enough n i happily broke my hair band...nice...next yr im gonna bring extra everyting including hair band...!

haven been watching movies for ages...really miss going to da movies...haiz..too bad roommie dun like to watch eng movies...go back..i will cheong cheong cheong...been watching shows online too...hmz..20gb mite seems little to u guys..but to me..i can do wonders out of it..last month..i watch dark knight...these few days..ive been watching fated to love..but gotta watch da quota...careful cant exceed..if nt have to pay more money...glad tat ll dun use internet at home..they go back to their office everyday after dnr to use internet which is free..=D n roommie also dun really use much..so...dun waste ma...hehe...=P anyways...im suppose to monitor the use also...as long as they got enough to use...=D

went to seaworld on tues w xh n r n his ih frenz...i mean..since he got car..y nt tag along rite..? hehe...da journey there was damn quiet ahz...before tat xh was alr asking hw come we dun talk...but but..nt tat i dun wan to talk..he also dun have much response...so...listen to songs lor..lucky they're chinese songs..haha..at least we can sing to da tunes...hehe...=P ent fees to seaworld is quite exp...69bucks can...but go in saw dolphins...seals..lots of seagulls...polar bear n penguins...=D da shows were nt too bad...funny...n really very excited to see da dolphins show...see them do da turns...da leaps...n jumps...da interactions w da trainers...omg..they're really amazing creatures...u'll start wondering hw nice if im a trainer too...can work w such wonderful animals...ahz....=)

lunch was at seaworld...da amazing ting was...both me n xh finished our food...but they didnt...was telling her..coz we got da gt food cant wasted tinking...haha...though i was quite full..but i try to squeeze as much fries i can take..muahaha...save money until abit "short short" le...dnr was at sunnybanks...n on da way..i really learn my lesson of nt talking to r when he's driving...haha...he kept missing a turn or wat...going the wrong way...haha...so...shh...=X dnr was nt bad...chinese food...had fried hor fun w beef...nice nice..big plate also..defintely more worth than da seafood nasi gorang i had at hawken dr...had a glipse of wat sunnybanks had n wat to expect...tmr going...yeah...=D

alot has been going thru my mind...mainly home...love...frenz...really miss them...my family...my frenz...da one ting tat i really hate to happen is becoz of coming here...frenz become strangers...attitudez gals has been trying to webcam w me tis wk...nice...so funny of them..first they went kai's workplace..but as they were using clar's da mobile internet tingy..so da ting was quite lag...than they shifted to mac using tat ting...n they're damn bad lar..showing me tat they're eating sg food...or even mac..but nice of them to leave some for me..haha...tks gals...really miss u all alot..dun forgot our trip when im back k...n all da plans we have made...=D my poly gang...tink they're kinda busy w most of them studying in sch as well...my ncc gang...haha...received an email abt their outing..w our usual supervising conducting safety ting..haha...nice work guys...lets hope nuting will change between all of us k...? n i really wish ting will be da same w/o me ard...though there mite be less crap n lame jokes...muahaha...but...ya..be united ya...=D missing da feeling of being love n loving some1...where is my destiny..? where is my fate..? patience is running out...

some pics i took at seaworld...n on da way back...

...welcome to seaworld...

...eh...hehe..hehe...

...inside seaworld...

...keep tinking da shadow make me look like bo gey...btw..starfish is da main focus here...

...big bird...

...cute little penguins like me...haha...=P...

...dolphins show..isnt it amazing..

...eh...my hand...?...

...parkway any1...? haha...

...guess wat i found...??...

eh..da rest of the pics i uploaded in fb...so...go there see k..? maybe i'll upload in multiply...=D

lazy dazy crazy

2008-09-21T14:14:00.003+08:00

has been lazy dazy wk...dun whether is it coz last wk too tense le..till tis wk has total no motivation to study at all...hmz...sit in front of com...n jus stare at my books...start at lappy...n play spider solitaire...=/

junior jumbo came on tues...!! so happy...although i missed it...it came when i was in sch n xh missed da door knock..tats da prob when ur hse doesnt have a door bell n ur rm is upstairs...da timing on da slip was jus a couple of mins after she went upstairs after lunch lor...oh well...its faith to let me wait 1 more day n have it deliver to me personally..haha..called them da moment i reach home n had it arrange to deliver it da next day..but dumb but i cant chose da timing to be delivered lor...haiz..but my guess would be abt da same time as they had delivered today..so i waited with da door open in da living rm ever since i come home after sch...da moment i hear da van pulled in i was so eager to see THE BOX...!! ^_^

thank you so much to shun n jh....thanks guys..u guys did deliver ur promise to send me stuff....lets see...u all scare i starve myself...so got me 6packs of maggie...hehe..which i totally love it...da maggie here selling 1 pack at abt 2.50aud...?? tats like daylight robbery lar...n my 3in1 coffee to prep me for exams...which here doesnt sell..dun understand y..they practically got instant all kinds of food but nt coffee tea or instant milo...oh well...n da poly gang pic i wanted...jh even got it framed...so nice...n da tons of notes tat dp gave to shun...haha...its all solutions lar..thanks guys..examples are wat i nid most here...its of totally great help...n not forgetting...bak kut teh packs..!! those tat i forgot to pack into my luaggage...bkt coming up on wed...!!

spring is here..n its getting hotter everyday..yet..im still fair...arghz..tried sun tanning on my balcony..haha..damn funny lar..tink i fall aslp lor..but oh well..its a sunny dazy afternoon...oh..n ting...i went coffee w him...=) ya..like finally i know...had quite bit talking...nt bad..kind of like da first fren i actually made here...so tks for da insisting intro..haha..jus kidding..u gals r my great sisters...n i like u gals worrying for me...haha...n dun tink abt changing tat dp jus yet alrite..? hehe...2 more months....i cant wait..i miss home..(n oreoz...!!!)

edit post : tks to my sisters..!! they sent me pictures of my niece chevaun..my gosh..babies really grow up fast..nw she can actually walk assisted le..!!

came across tis song...it touches me..

2008-09-12T15:18:00.007+08:00

even though ive heard it so many times before...

放肆的尽情挥霍
那一年玩的多疯
你和我站上全世界的最快乐的颠峰
等着雨停的午后
你希望此刻永久
而现在永久就是永久的牢笼
让我一直在等候
等待后面是等待
更沉默的等待
然后咬紧了牙关
等待更多的等待

如果你爱过我
你不会就这样走
就这样丢下我
和那些天真承诺
如果我再也不
不能再更多的承受
痛哭之后却又咬紧牙关

你最爱哪个歌手
最爱吃什么火锅
最爱把小小的脸
轻轻的靠在我胸口
这城市每个角落
回忆都霸占街头
我知道你会想起雨停的时候
我知道你会回头
继续飘流
痛哭之后却又咬紧牙关wo…
继续等候wo…

tired wk...

2008-08-30T17:48:00.002+08:00

hey ppl...jus got back from river festival..went to catch da half an hr fire works with xh..met up with mx and her frenz there also...watch together...n so tat she can pass me da NDP cd tat she suppose to share w us...like finally..haha...anyways...lucky we went to da ferry terminal slightly earlier...if nt..da queue was so long tat it actually hit da park lor...there were so many ppl when we reach tat...n tat cute ms mx...ask me go ferries wheel meet her..than she called n sms me...to tell me change to somewhere else...(didnt hear da hp ringing act...too many ppl..!!) but met up w her still...next mtg is going to be at sunnybanks...haven been there yet..heard tat there's a mini roc there..hmz..hope can find gd deals..

tis wk wasnt very smooth sailing...it all started w a piece of honey dew..!!?? u believe it..? omg...it was after ex...having dnr (fruits) at home...she was preparing for next day's lunch as i had to have it in sch as i have classes...i did asked her whether she wans some..she say she dun wan..than ok lor..i eat..than while watching tv at the same time i bu zhi bu jue eat till da last piece le..than she suddenly goes "y u finish everyting..? i was intending to keep them till tmr for lunch...!" than i got a shock...kept saying sorry..kept saying coz when i ask she say she dun wan and she has alr said that she's keeping them..but i rem clearing she nv said tat ma...than she gave da angry look...though i kept saying sorry sorry...but she jus wouldnt give way..than i dunno y..i suddenly got tat qi inside me..than i..ok..fine..i dun eat k..i spit out da bite i took...throw into da bin..than she say...y so angry..joking only wat..but..after i do this than u say tis..? come on' lor..i felt tat i was being fooled ard like an idiot lor..than we didnt talk da whole nite...till da next day...i hao xing sms her say she can use my com to try her cd (her lappy doesnt read her finance cd)...than she say wait till we got back n its kinda stupid tat we fought over da honey dew..oh well..i agree..but i gave way..i tried to talk to her..but she wouldnt give way...i mean it wasnt my fault rite..? joke is joke wat..it jus came to a point i felt so cheated and being fooled like an idiot...

sat was hazardous day for me..and i jus realise i mite jus be karma...haha...fall down (u guys who know me well shld know..i can fall without knocking into anyting)..got a scratch on my leg while going to sch..than after marketing on da way to bus stop..i didnt realise tis pickup was going to move..neither was xh..than sudden it reverse..so my 1st reaction was to use my arm to block..than i got a cut on my hand...-_-" karma becoz..tues during tut..i act saw tis ang moh guy tings drop out of this bag...i tot he realise since he went to pick up da bag after it fall...but he left without noticing..!! n i act knew abt it...n didnt tell him...haiz...karma..

mx jio go melbourne during 1 wk break...29sept-5oct...feel like going coz of sg day over there n xh mite be going nz to find her fren...dun feel like going coz..need to spend a lot of money...hmz..hw hw..?? i wanna go diving nehz...n da currency rate is dropping..!! pray hard tat it will cont to drop till i go back n change all da money first..muahahaha....can save a lot u know..

Zz monster kept attacking me these few days...mood also nt very gd...meaning quite sianz sianz lar...spring is here..but its still quite cooling...didnt on heater for days le...n my microsoft words act play punk w me n stop working...!! idiot...lucky hero gave me da idea to dl it..haha..nw can work le..lucky..coz i nid to finish up my essay...n i must give credit to yuyu..she help me edit..so nice rite..? lucky..if nt i sure cue de..

hmz..still quite lonely in sch..but oh wells...like ive said before..im more slow warm person..is it going to be like tis for da next 2yrs..???????

...nice ferries wheels @ south bank...

new look...

2008-08-24T19:52:00.004+08:00

hmz..been wanting to change blog layout..n i did today...

its a lonely nite...xh's sis happen to fly bris today..so..naturally she went to meet her tonite..staying over at her hotel..hanging out w her tmr..envy..she's missing sch tmr but if i were here i would do da same ting too..its been 45days since we left changi airport..da longest we've been away from home..

starting to miss home abit (yaya..i dun look like da homely type...but u know after so long)..but getting use to here at da same time..as xh's nick in msn..its da same routine everyday...morning wake up eat breaky..go sch...come home..eat lunch..study..go sch ex...come home..eat dnr..bath..study...slp..and da cycle goes on n on...

sat we went to indooropilly...went to get pillow for me...coz hasnt been slpin well ever since we got to aus...dunno whether is it coz i didnt have a pillow or wat...haiz..hasnt fig tat out yet..took sis advise n drank warm milk..but tink i still did wake up once in da middle of da nite..oh well..its better than other nites alr..

frenz was asking me wat food i want them to send...after being here for a month plus..i dunno...i suddenly feel so lost of wat i want nw..to eat or nt to eat..to study..? bath..? slp..? watever it is...wat comes to me..i'll jus take it...

made pancake today...after getting some advise from dad...(though he didnt really sounded interested to talk to me...he says he's busy...) nt so bad...starting to tink wat can i cook for my frenz when i go back...part of me cant wait to go back..but another part of me didnt want to go thru da have to come back part...sometimes i feel tat i rather stay here all da way till i finish studies..

set some goals for myself to achieve wkly..

1) to finish all my tutorial and assignment
2) to read up of wat's ahead
3) to increase my workout load
4) to be a better person...(its crap lar..jus someting to make up a last ting i wanna add to da list...=P)

heard tat dare boys went out to celebrate da leos birthday...guessed they had an enjoyable time together..keppel bay..nice place..btw..happy birthday guys...

attitudez gals..make some time for each other k..i know kai is busy touring da world...(haha..act its jus japan n she went london after tat...so gd...=/) and cy is busing working in shanghai...da rest of da 3 of u...dun be lazy...email me back can...

heard tat camp sent my service plaque (dun really know hw to spell initially...spell it as plague..than cg came to correct me..tks ahz...) to home n call sis telling her it was urgent...end up getting them to despatch to janice sis hse instead since nobody was at home n it was URGENT...haha..so funny..i tot wat was it...my pink i/c or wat...haha...sis sent me a pic of chevaun holding it..so cute...let me share it with u guys to end da post...

yes im in an ang mo country but my ang moh nt gd...so..? does tat mean one is to be very gd in ang mo to go ang moh country...? chinese nt gd dun go china lar..

west end market...

2008-08-16T20:46:00.006+08:00

hey ppl...today..im gonna intro to u guys..da place where we always go on sat EARLY morning...(our time 0715hrs..ur time..0515hrs..) to get our groceries..

this place is called "west end market"...at a suburb u guess it..west end..haha..its jus a river cross away from st lucia..so every sat morning..we'll walk to da city cat ferry terminal n wait for da city cat aka ferry...some pics to share for this wk buy..

...didnt buy tis actually..but got it for last wk..half can last us for almost 2wks..!!...

...pears are nice..swt and cheap...

...my fav part of coming here..delicious bread for breaky...

...fish here is cheap n fresh..n of coz..we didnt buy whole fish coz we dunno hw to deal w it...

tis wk has been a relatively routine wk..but all da assignments and stuff starts to pile in lor..imagine...fri i than know tat eng analysis assignment need to hand in on da following monday lor..and da stupid programming..im quite bad at doing one myself..im better and altering others u know...i really really can understand logic better tat way..plus tat stupid lectuer didnt even teach us to tat extend to do such programming stuff in da assignment lor..idiot..thurs somemore short change us..2 hrs lect only teach for 1 hr..and tat lect was da only lesson i had on tat day lor...!! arghz...watever...fri start to panic abit..lucky got demos..his college senior did tat course before..loan them his exact same workbk as us with da "examples" inside..hehe..shld nt and dun tink i nid to further explain hw i complete my assignment than..haha...=P

oh..must tks brendan..tat day..tink is tues..was trying very hard to do my machine element design tut which my tutor failed to teach me finish by da end tutorial finish and i had to rush for another class...tong until my time here abt 3am than slp lor...sorry bren..i know next day u got class...ehz..if u're reading tis..actually da last 2 questions was da wrong ans...hehe..but its ok...i printed da solution le..will research from there...da rest r all rite...=)

next day wed...we went to tis ekka show day..its like their annual carnival kind of ting..was convince by ppl tat its a must at least go once ting..n i told xh abt it..and manage to convince her to go also...and since her classmates was going..(suppose to go together..but end up nv even meet there lor...) and she got so excited abt these show bags tat they're selling there...so ya..we went...first we bought da daily off peak concession travel tic...but end up only use for da ferry trip from our hse here to city..coz da dumb bus..after waiting for near half an hr..didnt stop at da stop coz it was full..(ppl..dun imagine our bus tat kind of full..it was jus filled w alot of ppl standing tats all..still got space de..if compare to our bus full...) fedup..we went to take da ferry...talking abt da daily tic...end up..go da carnival must buy another special tic for da train tat goes specifically there only...another 2.40...entrance fees to da carnival...16bucks...n go in play those games or take those rides also must pay..nt cheap also lor...we end up spending most of our time in da showbag pavilion and finding food to eat...had our lunch and dnr there...spend alot of time tinking wat to eat..coz its da monthly day where we indulge into eating out...hehe...eating to our heart content..plus its was exp..so want buy also must buy someting filling..and worth eating..and i got a steak burger where i initially wanted to eat but went walking ard and ard tinking maybe there's someting similar but cheaper n bigger...-_-" another miss buy..da stupid krespe kreme..shldnt have bought it there lor..while on our way back..when we were at city (train go back city to take da ferry) i saw da krespe kreme shop selling 6 donuts for 9.95 where i bought mine 4 donuts for 10bucks at da show lor..wth...arghz..haiz..got nothing to say...tried my luck at a game coz i very gian win da big mushroom man from mario..but...as u can tell...no luck...watever again...pics to show...

...waiting for ferry..public hol = bad transport...

...doesnt it look like chun dao he pan..?...

...dagwood dogs..only avail @ ekka show...

...one of da game stall..def nt da 1 i played..

...jen was at ekka show 08'...

...dessert..nice strawberry sundae..got real strawberries on top n bottom oh..

...some ladies we spotted outside da stadium where they having da horse jump comp...

...animal show..haha..no lar..they showcase their cow..see whose can give more milk..=P...

...ghostly...? no lar..its conrad @ brisbane city..

...their pier..waiting for ferry..home..cold..

...haha..trying to take pic of da bridge on da ferry..fast n cold..!!...

all in all..sch was..ok..got gd got bad...but..wat to do..jia you...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i miss home though...i mean..more of da food part...muahaha...jus kidding..of coz i miss my family n my lovely friends...=D

internet @ home...!! finally..

2008-08-11T13:41:00.001+08:00

hey peps...after 1 month of waiting...finally i got internet at home..!! tat includes home phone too..

nothing much very happening these fews days...manage to take pics of da open market tat we go on sat to get our veggies and fruits...hehe..went earlier last sat..coz i got dental appt..someting dropped out of my braces a few days after sch starts...its da stopper ting in da centre tat prevents da mental wire from sliding...oh ya..as i was saying...open mkt...haha..now we got more reason to go mkt on sat early morning...btw..we set off from home at 0800hrs...we will go there for breaky instead of having it at home..haha...go eat there eat da bread..nt so ex and its big enough to fill our hungry morning stomach..

after we will get our veg..sometimes seafood...last wk we got meat..coz buy 2 get 1 free...(hmz..im sounding more and more like hse wife...=/) than...we will walk ard..n find free tasting food..!! haha....=P sh*t..really more n more like aunty liaoz...nvm...got fan huo tian dian also lor...coz can try their exp apples and pears...=D

coming wed we're going to ekka day festival..heard tat is a yearly event tat everybody will go...wonder wats its abt...we'll see...

getting colder and colder each day...like da first few days we come like tat..although got heater but i can still feel da cold wind blows...although got sun...

went to sign up for total value pass at uq sports...3 months unlimited entry to gym..cardio rm..pool and all da grp fitness classes...!! which we r going for 1 each day...quite fun actually...got body cbt..which is like kick boxing..body attack...really shag u out..body pump..carry weighs for toning..bodyjam..which is quite fun..machaim aerobics...and cardio funk..really like dancing kind..must find tings to do here..if not..life very bored..

my drama is finishing u believe..!! arghz..ppl...those who love me..cherish me as a friend..buddy..sister...pls...u know wat to do...muahahaha...=D ms seah...da s*x n city...i only got till season 4,5,6 all until ep6 only...........=)

...west end market..our sat hang out..

...pls look closely behind me..xh concentrating on picking apples =P...

...uni very safe..got bus fetch u home after 1800hrs..

...my 1st panaroma shoot of my rm..

cold cold aussie...

2008-07-28T09:40:00.003+08:00

its super cold here in aussie...! i mean at least here lar..haha...so cold tat even xh gave up on running tat day..!! so funny..we actually run out of the hse n jus turn out to the streets only she turn back..claiming tat its cold till her legs r numb le..didnt even skip for a few days..coz it was raining..bua tahan..end up i went out to get heater..lucky manage to contact ian here...he got car...drove to a nearby town toowong n eventually got a heater from coles..imagine..they sell electrical appliances in their supermarket...muahaha..cute rite..??

sch is ok..but alot of basic stuff i forgot le..need serious catching up..stupid lecturers who post lect notes on fri evening when there's lect on mon morning..cant they be more consider for students who doesnt have internet at home n can only print from home..?? heck..just gonna go for lect without notes later..

lucky we rented tis place..yest da place tat put up us orignally msg xh and complained abt da china guy...oh-bi-good..who ask them reject us in da first place..n luckily we nv rent..tat place quite dirty lor..was telling xh..if need cleaning up it'll take us a month man..n they wont even keep it clean even if we do so..*evil grin*

gotta run for class nw...miss u guys so much..!! everybody got my add n no. in aus..?? if no..pls kindly email me n i'll send u da details..n rem guys..i got a hi card no. ...feel free to sms there...!! love u guys..

some pics tat i mite have missed...every sat going to this open mkt at west end for groccery shopping..gosh..we're really more n more like hse wives..cant believe we're telling ppl we're going home to cook..!!

...me in train on da way to indooroopilly to get our printer...

...waiting for da 1 hr once buz home from indooroopilly...

first day of sch..

2008-07-21T11:26:00.004+08:00

hey ppl...have alr settled down in da new hse...hehe..kinda excited..coz we manage to settled everything..bought clothes airer..even got my printer..so proud..haha...was telling xh tat we're looking more like hsewives le..=P started cooking too...and start to fill full...coz been eating bread da past few days..n so far we've cooked pasta..porridge..curry chicken (those instant ones of coz..)..n rice..!!

mx came over to our place to visit too..commented tat its cool..i agree..tat day so cool tat i shivered under da blanket...even though i was wearing jacket le..too bad my long johns was in da washing machine..dun really know wat to type..let da pic do da talking..

...in da hse we SUPPOSE to rent but luckily nv...

...our new rm, it comes w balcony walk in wardrobe and our bathroom!!...

...waiting for buz...

...our new hse..

prob w accom...

2008-07-16T14:23:00.003+08:00

hey ppl...im currently still homeless can...!!??

arghz..da stupid china guy actually broke his previous lease with a 1000bucks penalty...therefore...THEY CANT FREAKING CHASE HIM OUT..!! have to rent him da place.......................!!! nvm...

it all started on mon nite..when they tell us they cant chase him out..than luckily xh ask them whether we can stay at their place temp as our backpackers here cant ext anymore...(though we did ext for 1 more nite but it was a single rm)..so da guy came over and drove us and our lots of tings luggage over to his place and gave us a place to stay for da moment...

tried calling our 2nd choice of place to rent..and yet again...it was taken up by china gals..!! arghz..sry but..ya..i kinda dun like them for da moment....pissed...

dun like to get da feel of being homeless...i jus wan a place to stay..and settle down..i have yet to open my luggage still lor..no room for me to do my own stuff..have to kept repack n repack..getting more n more frustrated as days goes by...haiz..

its day 5 of aussie exp..and they aint all nice...exp food..exp place..but today sometings gd did happen to us..i was quite confused with wat courses i nid to take initially..but luckily went to attend da eng int students welcome session..got my worked out study plan from them..lucky...if not im still a boat lost in da big ocean any hw chose courses to study...

going to see hse later..hope it goes well......ppl...i nid some luck n gd prayers..pls do ur job as my frenz n buddyz...haha...thank u...MISS U ALL...once again...=D

some pics to share...

...my student id...

...us on da citycat (ferry) on da way back frm sch...

...me by da river waiting for buz...

...me in sch today...!!!...

hey hey..aus here i am..

2008-07-14T09:16:00.003+08:00

hey peps...!! updates from aus..!!

oh well..weather is really cold out here...didnt really take a lot of pics..coz lazy to take out ahz..hehe..=P very cold lehz..and bag very hard to take tings..=D next time k..when im settled down..

some info..

-flight delayed at changi airport..actually took off at ard 2225hrs..
-flight delayed again at brisbane international..da aerobrigde had some prob connecting to da plane
-still staying at temp accom...ext my stay...
-perm accom has some prob with their potential candidate as tenant...who is a china guy..they didnt want to rent to him..but to us instead..therefore..need to chase tat guy out first..
-plan is to move out stuff over tonite...tmr slack at sch in da day..till evening there's ppl in da hse..=)

pics of our room at da backpackers..really small..oh well..its cheap ma..=D quite cozy lar..jus maybe lack of heater..? 1st nite both of us really kept waking up coz of da cold...

tings r really ex here...normal coffee cost abt $3 at least? got cheaper once but must know where to find..
sandwich can coz abt 5bucks...?? really ex here..these few days we cant cook..so can only eat bread with jam, tuna, cheese, chicken ham, nutella..n forgetting biscuits and bananas..one loaf can last us 2 for at least 4 meals...=D

just wanna say thank you again..for all da presents and cards and PICTURES..!! tat u guys give..really love them all..thank you...

btw..nie nie got fren u know..such a coincidence...!! he's dan's son...little dan.=)

im leaving...in a jet plane..

2008-07-07T04:17:00.002+08:00

hey ppl..if u still dunno....ben siao jie wo yao fei le..!! i'm leaving for aus..for my studies of coz..(idiotz..cost me a bomb k..da org im working for doesnt..i repeat..DOES NOT pay for da full fare..) im on lsa..

details as follows:

duration of studies: 2.5 yrs (ending nov 2010)
location of studies: UQ (st lucia) [its @ brisbane]
course of studies: B.Eng (Mechanical+Aerospace) [i'm crazy i know...]
shu tong : guo xiao hui [haha~ jus kidding..we're going there together..she's getting her b.bus]

will be there till end of da yr, n will be back for va for 3months...

1st departure flight details as follows:

date: 100708
time: 2125hrs [if u're tinking to come send me off...i'll be at airport by 1915hrs]
no.: qf 0052
terminal: ONE 1

im nw very sad n depress liaoz..so...ya...haha...excited for studies for sad to leave behind all my beloved family n frenz...so miss me n forget me nt k...pls keep me updated of all family and frenz events/outings/mtgs/chilling/hanging.......send me photos..songs..voice recording..watever u wan to EMAIL me...to send me tings..wait till i get a place to stay k..

btw..i have nt found a place to stay yet..so whoever got frenz/family staying there or has lobang..PLS PLS inform me..tks tks..

love ya all...!!!

current statues: poor poor student.....................=D

好衰的一个礼拜......=~(

2008-05-20T14:29:00.003+08:00

its has been a rollar coaster ride ever since i went overseas..it all started with the "you're not going SA..." news...wth..

things was still going alrite on the first few days i came back actually...when the retreat starts..tings jus got hay wired..

first day of retreat was still ok..2nd day i got up late for the retreat..oh..now come aback thinking of it..it all actually started with the phone..!!! (maybe..coz i was actually late tat morning...) run twice to iposh to get my new e51 non camera version, trading in my w950i, which i had to went home to get the whole phone kit and go back to get the money...

next..during the retreat mahjong session..i actually "zai hu" when i was alr waiting for ban se dui dui xiao san yuan can..!!!??? arghz..but overall i still win $1 after the whole game...

next..was late for work the next working day.....wth....then came fri when we went to prep for the event..we forgot to bring the audio audio cable..so i offered to go home take..since i think i have..than "smart ass" me tot giant mite have and went there to get..than dun have..nvm...most prob courts have..went over..accidently press the speaker button in the lift somemore (btw..i was in WORKING ATTIRE...!!? if u guys get wat i meant..) so i jus pretend tat i didnt hear anyting..though da lady was like "hello?? hello?? yes???" =P than they also dun have...super pissed...end up go home take and went there...guess wat..they found da wire.................... . . . . . '_'" watever...

next day..........................LATE AGAIN.......!!! wth...and when i tot everything was going fine..here comes da big one...(hope my sis doesnt read this..if yes..pls pretend u nv see anyting k..=D) think i wasnt really concentrating as well..i accidently bump into other ppl's bumper.........................with 3 of my colleagues inside...arghz...

really demoralised...da whole long wkend was so not happening...although all my frenz tell me its ok...ren mei shi jiu hao..everybody got their time...haiz..thanks peps..jus blame myself for wth am i thinking..

went to da garage today to settle tat guy's car..idiot..i nv knew we could use the old bumper and refurbish it (i only knew tat afterwards)..tat idiot jus told da technician tat he want to change a bumper..damn..all tat cost 500bucks in total lor..i totally broke down when i heard it..who to blame but myself..its really a price to pay for learn..when i tot i would have some spare cash to make specs..now im eating into my edu fund tat ive been trying to save for the past yr...arghz...

nw still waiting for my aus uni application...really hopes tat it comes soon....

long time no blog..

2007-12-26T02:18:00.000+08:00

hey hey..hasnt been blogging ever since i came back from hei hei de di fang ehz..=P

how's me lately..?? tink i gonna die of owl illness..haha..=P been coming back home in da wee hours almost every other wkend and when im on off and leave like nw..haha..jus feel tat cant waste any free time tat i have..really enjoy myself spending time with my frenz..which appearantly..according to them..plus i realise myself..has missed times with them for da past yr...sry guys..

been tinking alot lately..wat was i tinking in da past..y have i nt been juggling my time well..nt spending time with my frenz..i realise i missed out quite alot with them..when they were talking abt last time..i dun see myself in the picture..places they went which i didnt go along...things they've done which i was nt involve..conversations that were talked which i have no idea what they are talking abt..

lyn was jus telling me tat day..she has tons of pics at home of da gang which doesnt have me inside..i felt so..sour..so left out..guess i deserve it..kept rejecting them..tellin them i cant make it..not only them..even attitudez side is the same..there r lots of things happened within the grp which i usually is da last one to know..coz i wasnt ard most of the time..i really dunno wat to say..

when times i felt so alone at tat pt of time..i deserve it..but luckily i have true frens..lots of them...tks lyn for saying to me "its ok, as long as u are spending time with us nw" [nt exact words but meaning abt da same lar ahz..=D] as least im feeling more involve nowadays..unlike wat it used to be..they will always tink "aiya..jingshi/jen sure nt free de..no nid to ask her" tks peps...=) really glad to have frenz like u guys ard...

work hasnt been very good or very bad...or shall i say i can take shit tat is slap into my face...=X jus wanna finish my tour peacefully and hope to go on and study..be it aus/sg [hopefully sg of coz..can save money ma..est amt to loan if aus is ard 50k lor..looking at da conversion rates] shall nt talk more abt my naughty batch of xiao gua..=X

hmz..tink ive been having too much of a gd life recently..haha..you fa fu de xian xiang le..!! arghz..=/ i really really nid to go do lots of exercise le...nid to drag my lazy ass go running..if nt next yr's ippt sure cua until cannot see ahz..jian bu de guang...and i wan wear nice nice clothes during cny..!!

clearing of off and leave is really nuah for me...haha..travelled..quite..a bit...=D went to batam with jh cg jason..quite fun..though da trip is short..but was meant to be a relaxing trip..their stuff really quite cheap and the seafood..power..gt nuthing to say except die die have to go back and eat..haha...=P after resting for a day..went KL with the gals [kai ting clar]..our long planned shopping trip..haha..really shop till we dropped..my legs really cant feel anyting lor..walk n walk n walk...gals...but it was a very very fruitful trip...few tings tat were bad..kept having funny ah peh come and talk to me..if nt stalk us...wth...and the coach trip back was hell compared to da heaven we travelled to KL...no in hse entertainment..no nice airplane type of seats and still da suspension was too "powerful" tat i can hardly drink water...!!

oh well...too much of "talking"..check out all da pics tat ive took on da events tat happened ard me recently here...http://dotsux.multiply.com..decided to plant all da pics there..more fang bian...coz faster ma..so..check them out there..=D

the land of holy curry...

2007-10-14T03:27:00.000+08:00

hey guys...sorry didnt reply or pick up ur calls these few days..6days into the land of holy curry...(or rather land of holy sand...all my clothes are turning brown everytime i go out...=/) phone bill expensive..=P $1/sms lor..imagine calls..

hmz..emotionly quite unstable recently...career wise...relationship wise..starting to worry tat i wont be able to find da one anytime near..haha..sounds like an old hag..getting boss ard by ppl..wat to do..smallest in the centre of the ring..eligiable but unable..facts of the working life..can feel like im getting lazy doing my stuff le..either tings kept slip off my mind..or jus simply heck care..i know i nid to buck up..i wan to buck up..i jus wish i has a support..i tot i can get use to doing without a pillar..but im jus nt independant enough...

i miss...i wan...and i yearn for it...da time is still nt here...

there is one..maybe im jus too yearning for one...nt desperate..but i simply dunno hw to react anymore...go for it..?? nice man are always taken...

thanks 7 drawfs for helping me drink beer with whole egg...gan ji bu jing...=D

sometimes in da nite..i jus wonder..y am i so lonely..?? y i feel tat..?? i look lonesome..and simply hard to find new heart to heart frenz anymore..unlike use to be..i had close frenz all ard...................................i dunno wat to say anymore..its a feeling hard to describe..emotion surpress inside..i jus wanna let it out...cry...=~(

im sorry...

2007-09-16T22:02:00.000+08:00

im really sorry for all da stuff u have to put up with me when u see me..all da tormenting tat ive been doing to u..ive tried my best nt to mislead u..ive tried to stop ppl from encouraging u..

so pls ppl..do not bring it up or talk abt it anymore..its nt funny..i dunno y im explaining it to u guys..but like wat i told lyn..its abt da feeling..he is a great guy..he deserve better..to me..he's jus a big brother..so pls...=X

gimme sometime to get over the "ordeal"..i knew tis will come sooner or later..but its really hard for me to face tis..i know we r mature adults (like wat u said, tot it sounded weird..) its hard to pretend nothing happened...

gd luck for ur business...

weird dream..

2007-09-02T20:10:00.000+08:00

hasnt been getting a good slp these few days..been so busy with aoh..finally its over..must really tks my guys for all da helped they have rendered..though they dun have much of a choice..hehe..=P all da sudden rehearsals in da middle of da nitez..ad hoc stuff here n there..haiz..been getting "no, cannot..must do it.." arghz..getting me bit pissed off but cant show it..wat to do..its work..and im da smallest in da room...jus glad there its over with little c**k ups..made a few wrong decisions...=( oh well..its iver..!!!!! a big learning process for me...dealing with ecas...next up..india..

gave pei's bd celebration a missed..sry gal..fall aslp on da sofa da moment i got home..super tired after working for 3 days non-stop..only getting naps in between..and missed da show with da guys..haiz..sry peps...!!

had a weird dream yest..dreamt of tat monkey..actually dreamt tat he came back to look for me..and i actually accepted him..!!?? perhaps its a inner desire..?? i dunno..its been almsost 6 months after i broke up with da frog..love indeed is what i still crave for i guess..

i miss u...

2007-08-08T01:34:00.000+08:00

watching corpse bride on hbo..it jus have to remind me of the old times..stayed up to catch da show..nt very sure da reason y..is it coz i miss him..? or is it coz i wan to watch tis show...?

was talking to my frenz tat day..they were saying tat i dun get to be single for long..agree and disagree..i mean..hw old am i already..(ok lar..nt tat im very old..) but was always looking forward to a long term relationship till ever after...sometimes its really hard to long for n find what belongs to u...dunno wat im talking abt already..getting distracted by tv..

had a great time at chalet over da wkend..met up with the guys..had fun seeing wm getting drunk and talking all nonsense..haha..etc etc...too bad i cant eat those food prepared for them..all i can do is help them prepare...but cannot eat..!! but nvm...at least they buy food gimme..porridge, bean curd, n nt forgetting shun's tub of ben n jerry's ice cream..!! nice nice...tks guys..

face still swelling and gums till bleeding..nt forgetting da liquid food...=/ arghz..cant my gums jus heal..!!!?? haha~~

tired..

2007-07-27T22:54:00.000+08:00

yoyo..i bought a new lappy..!! haha..acer aspire 4920G..=D tot abt it for very long le..finally got da "courage" and pocket to buy..
hmz..so call kena caught by "boss" tat didnt bk in on sun nite..haiz..nt tat i dun like to..but sun da camp so quiet..think nt really use to slpin in bunk by myself yet..sometimes kept waking up in the middle of the nite..thinking got ppl sneak in or trying to get into da bunk..=/ didnt really slp well..oh well..jus gotta guai guai bk in first ba..tink my off kept kena makan also..da ndp duties de..mon have to go talk to dy le..

dunno heng or suai..everytime my do duty come tat day so happen to have someting tat im involve..cross country so happans to postpone due to cat 1 (super heavy rain..da moment i got down da bus i know gonna make da way back le..) the new date so happen to be my first do duty date..(btw..jus pass my do test today ^_^) haiz..if only im nt involve in the running part..at least my pa system ting can get my wo to settle..jus gotta find somebody to help me stand-in for tat few hours lor..=(

oh..going to malacca with attitudez..very long nv see them le..kinda miss them nehz..gonna meet them up soon to discuss abt it..finally..da short wkend getaway tat im looking forward to..

wisdom tooth extraction next wed..=~( 7days of solidless food...!! ai mei de dai jia..da dates tat ive been getting have been so coincident with all my activities lor..on the very next day thurs i still gotta go for the inter unit air wpn com..!! with my swollen face...............arghz...no face le..

tired tired tired....

2lt jennifer ong

2007-06-26T23:37:00.000+08:00

its has been 3wks since i commissioned..

hmz..was telling da gals tat day got a dragging feeling of going to work..quite diff feeling from wat i tot it would be..all exciting n looking forward..nt sure whether is it my upper study didnt really teach me well..which made me feel kinda lost..dun really know da unit culture..jus like wat happened 2day..didnt know tat there is a bn life run..kinda missed it..was wondering hw come so few ppl took da bus in..than realise everybody is warming up for da run when i reach..haiz..=( nt tat i like running..but dun like giving ppl da feeling tat im chao geng-ing or wat..its like da 2nd time tat tis happen le..1st time was da out camp run..long story..haiz..ming ku ahz~~ haha..

got tis feeling tat my some of my colleagues has bad impressions of me..actually..doesnt really have a very welcoming feeling working there..dunno when will i ever be stab..hope it will nv happen..hope its jus me tinking too much..i need to jia you..!! oh ya..been waking up quite late recently..though i kept telling myself i wanna take bus to work..but..it kinda seldom happen u see...=P been quite lonely for lunch too..my kaki went aus to find his gf..waiting for him to come back..hope tings has been going well for him..

lots of tings to do in july ahz..going to X_X le..pray my duties days dun have funny stuff happening..need to conduct pt for da bn also..y i so suai......................................................................

as for my sisters..u gals jia you too..! (ehz..tink they dunno i got blog..but..nvm...) prawn having her induction nw..pray tat she dun drink too much..coz she'll "ROCK ON"..!! haha..~ lucky for me..i do nt have...!! lalala~~

went to meet aloy, shawny n issac @ mac lot 1 2day..didnt wan to bk out de..but since aloy ask for dnr...than go lor..since its nites out day..took da train from yck-cck..on da way..kinda pass by places which made me recall of the old times..especially woodlands..

tat was kinda of a sacred place to me nw..dun really dare to go near there actually..kinda feeling da after effect nw..all da memories jus rushed into my head these few days..especially those days when he's still serving his ns..those days tat we rushed to meet each other..jus for dnr or to catch a movie..if nt jus sit at a corner n chit chat..jus spending time together makes us content easily..hugz n kisses were treasured..plus i took a bus back from woodlands aft tat..it made tings even worst..da journey back was killing..though im tired..but i jus couldnt slp..sudden tot of all da msgs than we exchange..all da promises n vows..it'll nv come back..i regret giving him back da jacket..though i know he treasure it alot..tats y i gave him back..it seems tat he mite haf tot otherwise..

jus for him..i mite nt keep to my principles..jus for him..but if only it will happen..i doubt he ever will...ask me back...

is it over..?

2007-05-05T14:07:00.001+08:00

tings hasnt improved as i though it mite..in fact..it gotten worst..

was mentally prepared for it to happen..but its jus too hard for me to take..it felt even worst..kept reminding myself tat im a strong gal..n i can handle this like hw i did..its da hardest blow tat i ever took..

i really dun know wat is wrong with me..is it tat hard to maintained a relationship for once..? im tired..

mixed feelings im feeling nw..so guys..hope u all dun come ask me abt it first k..let me cool down..n i'll be fine..

commissioning in 35 days time..9june..i hope tat is when everyting will be finalised..

...leaving on a jet plane...

2007-03-23T10:50:00.000+08:00

bye guys..leaving 2nite le..cya in 3wks time..going to hell........................................than heaven..haha..

eh..dunno whether u guys understand or nt..its actually trg..than r&r..=P

life sux..

2007-03-10T01:24:00.001+08:00

im back on da blog..sry for leaving it so dead for da pass dunno hw many millions of days..haha~ mindef very strict n sensitive abt blog k..=P

latest update on myself..currently still trg to become officer..(thank god im still on it..haha..haven n will nt ooc..no worries =D ) change location le though..already in pro term...therefore nw nt at safti already..2more wks to taiwan trip..kinda looking 4ward to it..nothing much to say..but my aim for tis course is to get som..!! haha~ hopefully..kinda weak at knowledge though..even though it seems like i know alot..but comes to test n exam..i X_X nan de..manage to pass my ippt n soc at da 1st attempt..still rem during service i had to struggled to get them..nt only that..had to take a few tests than get them lor..proud of myself..but maintaining the standard is a big challenge...next wk got 24km route march with 20kg of weight eh..dunno hw im gonna survive..kena arrow da cadet conducting somemore..lots of tings to do ahz..still got exams to study..!!

relationship has been quite bad i must say..we're still together no doubt..but we r going down hill for sure..

he's no longer that gentle frog..instead he is a stressful frog..i guess sch hasnt been easy for him..with tests n exams plus his ccas..2yrs out of sch is really hard to catch up..

it hasnt been easy on us ever since i started trg n him going to sch..stressful work he has there n tough trg i have here..trust is wat i am lacking..nt tat i do nt have faith in him..but him having so much tings to do in sch..so little time for me (even on wkends) jus make me feel uneasy n most imptly i miss him..

there been times where i thrown my temper (im really sry n regretful abt it)..n im trying to control my emotions..trying to be understanding..but tings jus changed ever since..

msgs has been very little..perhaps 1 or 2 if im in luck..swt talkings r nt there anymore..care n concern..i shall nt talk more abt it..he claims tat he needed me to be there for him as a support..but i felt so blocked out..shut off from his world..i know nuts abt wat's going on with his life..u know y is he studying so hard..yes u know da reason..u try hard to understand..but at the same time..u jus wish that he could do someting to improve our relationship..

i tried to ask more..but he seems impatient..as if he tinks tat im suspecting him of having an affair..(which i really dun tink so, i know deep down inside he still loves me)..i jus wish i could help me out..prove to him tat i've changed n i can handle his probs..but a cold shoulder is wat i got..i feel so dishearten..really lost..i really dunno wat to do..i kept tinking that there r tings tat he r hiding from me..im so scare that i will find out tings that i nt wish to know n do nt wish to happen..i haf no faith in myself..

leaving in taiwan in less than 2wks time..but we haven been spending time on our own for a date..tot 2day we could haf gone out for a movie than later head for a drink down where we 1st kiss..but who knows he had make up classes n projs..i dun blame him..but at times..i jus wish i can be treated like i was use to be treated..like his girl..his baby..am i outcasted..?

when i dun see him..i felt uneasy..msgs were little n short n does not sound like he cares..but when im with him..yes..i still feel da love..but its nt da same anymore..i rather to be with him as there is where i feel him needing me...

rem last time i use to complain abt him controlling me too much..nt giving me freedom..nw hw i wish he could do tat to me..he doesnt really bother whether i return home late or nt..or go out wif who..i tried to msg him like i use to..telling him hw much i miss da good old days..but somehw..there was no reaction..

its really easy to say "let tings flow, let faith decide" but at times..i jus dun wanna give up..at the same time..i jus wan him to be happy..

new lapse in our life

2006-09-06T01:20:00.000+08:00

sign on is wat i did..signals officer..bmt is over n da tough challenges r pouring in like they nv did b4..physical is wat i lack..merely pass my ippt..failing my soc..low rope plus timing..fire was wat i was told tat was lack or..more of "三分钟热度" was used to describe me..support n confidence boost was wat i feel im lacking of..but work n growing up to be independance was told to me..cant be there for me was told..equally stressed was da reason..y at da same time..? i jus hate it..y must i sign on nw..? was it really fate..? really a test...? time will tell...

insecure..imagination running wild..is wat im feeling nw..faith i do haf..but i jus cant help to feel tat way..loyal n faithful yes i know..but action was nw taken..perhaps i was too pampered..perhaps tings was changing way too fast..n its really fast..really practically over da nite..perhaps u didnt realise..but i do..nt to meet up every wkend was told to us..but i cant..nt mtg on wkdays is really a killer to me at least..bt i guess..study really comes first n my feelings was nt as impt as ever..voice i hardly hear..words i hardly seen..close i was nt..jus fren im feeling..outcasted i am..lost in my own world..

i do nt wish to feel tis way..i do nt wish to fail..i do nt wish to let go..alone i cant attain..but who else...? only u can help..yet i feel so alone..struggling..as u do nt feel da same way as i do..cheated b4 i did experience..perhaps tat was y im feeling so insecure..promises i was given..but broken it came back..history i do nt wish to repeat..afraid yes i am..no1 to approach to..nt understandable i was told n blame by others..told was i am creating problems for myself to grief on...

i hate myself for being such a coward..such a insecurable idiot..for nt leaning on da trust we've built..trapped i am..who knows all these but me...? =~(

losing faith..

2006-05-03T00:03:00.000+08:00

im starting to lose faith in our relationship..i still loves him alot..yes i do..is it coz im too willful..? too sturborn..? asking too much of a freedom..? too sensitive..? i really dunno..someting in here is nt working out..

y d u haf to control me till so tite..i can hardly breath..i know u love me..but i cant even hang out w my frenz till late..!? come on..im not young u know..im not tat weak u know..gimme a bit more freedom..is tat asking too much..? if u r really tat worried abt me..y dun u pick up my phone when i called u when i got home..? aint u worried i call u for help..? aint u worried tat i got into trouble..? aint tats wat u r looking out for..? hoping tat i really got into trouble..so u can say "serve u right!"?

i cant read ur mind..i dunno wat u're tinking..i dun even know hw u tink anymore..it scares me..it really does..its like i dunno u anymore...............=~(

it alls started off so nice n beautiful..but..i dunno..things doesnt seems to be working out nowadays..especially im nw reaching such a critcal stage of my life..my career is rite in my front of me..i need support..family..friends..n him..

my friends..i dunno..outcast..? yes/no..? coz of him..? i dunno..i know they still cares for me..but a way of another..tings somehw is nt da same anymore..sometimes they'll go out w/o me knowing..coz they know i'll be going out w him..? i dunno..sometimes it jus hates to know they dun jio u all da times despite da best of friends..is it jus me..??

its true u know..when they say tots starts to wonder when u have alot of time..u jus cant help to tink alot..

asian aerospace 2006

2006-02-25T12:50:00.000+08:00

hey guys..sry to those regular blog hoppers..hehe.hasnt been updating..lazy + regular rountine..nuting much happening..shall update u guys nw..

helyn n gang quitting their job le..there goes my lunch kakis..haiz..haf to ta bao go back eat liaoz..hmz..bo bianz..they need to go back study..all da best to them..especially helyn ahz..dun watch vcd watch vcd..must study also..dun waste ur money..expensive u know..n its ur future we r talking abt..=P as if i tat hardworking..=D

V day..hehe..winky brought me to meritus mandarin to eat buffet..earlier on the fri b4 v day..coz he scare he wont be able to get to bk out tat day..it has cost him a bomb..very nice to eat..very diff types of food tat we usually eat..very diff..haha..ok..some r nice..some i dun really like it..come on..tink abt duck wif chocolate..?? hmz...=/ i baked him brownies, muffins and oreo cheesecake [which didnt really turn out too well..=D] glad he liked them..took a day off b4 v day to baked those stuff..tks to baby too..for her recipe..=)

winky's grandpa passed away..da day after we went to visit him..[thank god we went to visit him] to be exact..last fri..when he was suppose to be on standby tat very midnite..was kinda expecting it..coz he got kidney failure of last stage someting like tat..sobz..saw his grandpa a few times..visit him in hospital..visit him at home..chinese new yr dnr..nice guy...blessed wif fillal children n grandchildren..

last but nt least..went to asian aerospace yest..disappointing..last min ticket..my sup manage to get me 1 from da organizer tat happens to pass by HR..haha..lucky..trade day invitation card..jus like previous time i went..heyln tried to get me 1 but couldnt [thanks gal]..was already giving up le..there came da light in da end of da tunnel..haha..alrite only..nt as gd as previous..lesser souvenirs n posters..=( so much lesser lor..than nuting much to see also..da fighter jets like all see b4..ok la..got da apache lor..nt much helicopter as before also..kinda disappointing..same goes to da air show...no formation flight can..haiz..went there during or rather bit b4 lunch time wif my boss..hehe..no nid take time off..*phew* save some money..

talking abt money..dunno y i so suan these few days..da stupid job agent is going to delay my next pay check to da next next pay day can...arghz..coz they say they receive my time sheet a day late..n da F**king computer has already cut off..wat da h*ll can..damn..dunno whether to blame them or da mail man..i post it on fri nite lor..sat they still collecting wt..than da posting day is next working day which is mon rite..? dun tell me they dun work on mondays lor..=/ need to scrimp n save for the next 3wks till my next pay day can..n i only left 2digits of money for my transport n meals..knn..arghz..damn da agency..da next timesheet..im gonna pay them a visit..give it to them personally..!!

sry baby..forgotten abt ur birthday..been bit busy..happy belated birthday to u..happy belated birthday to u..happy belated birthday to u.......happy belated birthday to u..may all ur wish n dreamz come true..all da best in ur exams..take care of ur health k..? dun jus study n dance..eat also...! love u baby..

new yr has come..2006

2006-01-01T22:36:00.000+08:00

best wishes for all in 2006..!!

hmz..long time no blog le..coz noting much special to blog abt..dun tink u guys wanna know abt us also..hehe..as in da 2 of us..=P

wat i wan for 2006..get a real job..been wanting to sign on but da rd is nt as smooth as i tot it is..im begining to tink..is it fate..? but im nt going to gif up..gonna try till i get it..my dream..will do it no matter wat..getting sick n tired of temp-ing here n there..

da new job..hr dept..nt base..nt line..haiz..wat to do..i chose to change..so no regrets..job load is more n more tinking..but tink i kinda prefer tis..at least i know im really doing someting..nt slacking all da time..been telling ppl im under paid over work..but nw..tink tink..nt tat bad..maybe tat time i still new..got lots to learn..but nw..i got not much tings to do..most of da time im jus acting busy..hehe..=P ppl there..? hmz..dunno leh..they kept giving me da "xiao li chang dao" feeling..lucky my back is armoured..wont get penetrate tat easily..=P hopefully..oh well..jus treat it as a trg to da real world..

had steamboat w attitudez yest..but lacking of jamie n ting..thanks winky for helping me yest..hehe..help me cut da meat n do da washing up after tat..=) nt bad..didnt spend as much money as i tot it would cost..7 of us abt 60+bucks..eat till so full..even threw some away..haha..

bad news i got..1 of my ncc fren da dad pass away in an accident..=( really shi shi nan yu liao..treasure ur love ones while u still can..u nv know wat will happen tmr..nowadays..i also try hard nt to quarral w mum or dad..everyting i jus gif in to them..telling myself they r getting old..let them do wat they wan..tahan..though u know..my mum can be unreasonable at times..=P but nw..i can say her temper is better than last time le ba..? hmz..=P

to ben..wat happen..has already happened..let it go n carry on wif wat he expected u in..rem his teachings n moral values tat he have given u..rem him like wat he wans u to..take care of urself n ur loves one..tat would be his greatest wish..ur strength would be ur love ones..n we r HERE to support u whenever u need..dun hesitate to contact us..u ARE strong..jus let it go wif a smile..n may all da good stay in ur heart n nv be forgotten..

attitudez celebrate my bd..=)

2005-11-27T16:42:00.000+08:00

went out wif half of attitudez yest..kai qy jamie pei n seek..went jack's place..they helped me celebrate my bd...really appreciated it..it'll be complete if da rest n winky was there..cant be helped..they got tings n work to do..but got their wishes im already very happy le..da cake was really nice..tink it was peach n aloe vera..kinda like fruit cake n sponge combine..show it to u all when i got da pic..yummyz~~ couldnt decide where to go after da meal..as usual...haha..=P so ended up at mistro bistro@ cine..drank iced mochachino..nt too bad..but qy iced milochino like nv add sugar de lor..so bitter can..=/ bitch ard as usual..catch up bit on hw's every1 doing..was disappointed wif ppl tat actually changed n hurting other's feelings..haiz..shld nt talk more abt tat..=X

didnt really wanna blog..but wanna show u wat they got for me..so here it is..they got me an addidas sweater..so nice can..! =D tks peps..really glad tat u all r there for me..dun forget our christmas n new yr gathering k..? really looking forward to these 2 days..love u guys..oh ya..da nano is wat winky got for me b4 he left for brunei..btw..i named it(nano) winky too..=P

jeff came over yest to pass me present..so nice of him..it was raining heavily..but he ran over niway...since he live so near..he left for taiwan tis morning..tink jus pass midnite ba..yi lu shun feng..hope everyting runs smoothly for him..

winky went for insertion on fri..tat was when i last heard from him also..coz he cant bring his hp to da jungle..coming out on mon..pray for his safety n health..dumb weather these few days also..kept raining..hope he'll rem to keep his feet n head as dry as possible..jia you..! counting down to 4 days..

ciaoz..

p/s: kai..rem to send me da pics we took k...?

change of job..

2005-11-23T23:51:00.000+08:00

jus tender my resignation 2day..went to sign contract yest..yes..im changing a job..from 1 temp job to another..fri is my last day at iras..starting work at siaec on mon..wish me luck..

was feeling half hearted actually..dunno y..maybe coz im in da comfort zone in iras..slack n get paid..or rather..im already familiar wif da ppl n da work there..but niways..im ready to see wats ahead waiting for me..im actually quite looking forward to wat kind of stuff will i do there..n most imptly..i get to see all da commercial aircrafts..!! hehe..=D

went out wif da ncc gang yest..celebrate ck's belated bd..coz harimau missed da 1 where they celebrated for him..i didnt went also..where they go 85 n eat..=P quite fun..harimau drove a lorry lor..haha..was so shock..tot they were jus kidding when they say tat..along came shai n eddie..went to changi village to get nasi lemak n ate it on da lorry by da beach..so dangerous can..tat big cat forgot to close da door behind..than it slided all da way back when he drove off..ck n teck went to attempt to close da door can..all of us was like..no no..than grab them by da shirts lor..swr even grab teck by his legs..wat a obscene scene can..

after da whole ting ends..he drove us home 1 by 1..so swt..tks tiger..! =D

acc xiaoyan go golden mile complex after work 2day..to get her bus tix to KL..she's going next wk wif her fren for shopping trip..she needs a break..especially when she's in corres team..da letters n fax like nv ending kept coming in like tat..after which..went walking ard at da army market for a while b4 rushing down to suntec to meet sisters..but too late..i reach there ard 1845h but they already went up..hang ard suntec for abt 2hrs b4 mtg them..stone for some time b4 deciding wat to eat..was hungry..but didnt know wat to eat till is saw da lady i tink..giving out bk coupon..so ended up eating bk..met ian taufik n his bro..so he sat down n acc me eat..lucky..if nt i would be eating alone..dun really like eating alone..if i haf a choice i would haf pack home n eat..

went coffee at pacific after mtg sisters..wanted to go starbucks..but was quite full..had hot chocs..didnt feel like going for coffee..went home after tat..tired me..going to slp le..take care world..especially winky..he called me 2day...actually he called yest also..hehe..so swt can..really home tat da weather there can be better..at least lesser rain..=(

winky goes brunei

2005-11-21T15:21:00.000+08:00

jus come back from airport..went to send winky off..sobz~ 10days of frogless days..jus hope tat he'll be back safe n sound..

yest nite..went to to beach rd again can..suppose to meet him at his hse..than my stupid msg didnt send thru..board da bus already than know last min he went out to china town to eat wif his family..but too late..da bus jus turned into pie..dropped at tpy n took 90 to change 51..did da id tag (blur blur left his own in his cabin didnt bring out of camp)..met him at beach rd..go jurong entertainment centre..he buy last min stuff..n went to catch "zathura" nt bad show..but still tink nt exciting enough..hmz..

went to his hse tis morning..nt bad..he took da initiative to wake up early to gimme morning call...so as to ensure i go his hse on time to haf breakfast wif his parents..dumb 506..so cold can..lucky i got bring my sweater along..but still..its cold..

eat breaky..go airport..sent him off..gave me a letter b4 he left..he actually wrote a poem for me..sobx..so meaningful..cant wait for him to get back..missing him already..his mum teared too..tink if he were my son..i'll be crying 2..

hmz..changing job next wk..da siaec peps called me..tink they really need ppl urgently..kept calling me..oh well..going to da recruitment agency tmr to reg myself..or rather pass them my certs etc..pay is lower..but got ot pay..unlike da company im working wif nw..wanted to go down 2day..but lazy go out le..nice weather for a nice nap..hehe..=P guess my last day at iras will be coming fri if everyting goes well tmr..sobz..cant bear to leave there..coz it such a nice place to work at..nice ppl ard..oh well..

shall go rest rest le..winky passed me lots of "la pi xiao xing" vcd to watch..scare i get lonely at home..hehe..=) so swt rite..=P oh well..ciaoz..

my first bd pressie from winky..ipod nano..!!

2005-11-19T23:40:00.000+08:00

winky gave me my 1st bd pressie from him..n its an ipod nano..!! omg..really didnt see it coming can..no hint at all..since he's going brunei on mon..he gave me da pressie early..yest..his parents even gave me ang bao n helped me cut a small cake..so swt can...tks winky..im really lost of words when u i open up da pressie..it must haf cost u a bomb..though u refuse to tell me da price n insist tat its cheaper than da price quoted by my fren..hehe..=P

went to beach rd..again..yes i know..but to help him find da kaki t-shirt..bo bianz..but lucky lucky..jus b4 we r going off..we went to ask 1 last shop n tat aunty so happen to haf 1 n onli left..phew..but he went to borrow from his frenz who is nt going..went to pray to goddess of mercy..goddess of sea..n went to help him finish packing his bag..

really pray for him tat he'll be safe n sound..will miss him dearly..taking a day off on mon to send him off..haiz..take really gd care k winky..? will miss u de..=)

finally...a change...!! haha..long time no see...

2005-11-16T01:38:00.000+08:00

haha..finally..changed my skin le..happy nw guys n gals..?? kept complaining say i nv change rite..hehe..

sry lar..didnt update..was kinda busy N lazy..nt jus dating k..i got work too..getting sick here n there..tink my immune system going down again..due to lack of slp..my insomia coming back again..haiz..slpless nite..so sometimes n tat in dun wan to slp..im beat..but i jus couldnt slp..any1 got any remedy for a gd nite rest pls tag me..tks..

winky going brunei next wk..haiz..hope he's going to be alrite..but looking at da amt of "ammo" he's bringing..haha..=P shldnt be a prob..gonna miss him though..=( these few wkends been busy going ard getting his stuff he needed for da trip..went to beach rd for 3 wkends k..wat to do..
oh well..did nuting much for da past few wks..going out..watch movies..(except horror 1s of coz..) went nco band camp for 2days..da last day i wasnt feeling too gd..so didnt go..poor syahir..he went himself..quite bored though..but saw 1 of my last time ncc senior..know him during my spec coz i tink..he's 22 n already a 1SG..best..o level holder only somemore..must haf cheong all da way sia..haha..=P gd for him..

gtg le..working tmr..its already so late..die..if winky know i slpt so late again..X_X ciaoz..

dear..both of us need to adapt to each other..i would try my very best nt to show u attitude of scold u..n i hope u dun mis-interprete me again..its very xing ku for me..coz i dun mean wat u tot i meant...but ur insisting is making tings diff for both of us..jus wan u to tink abt hw i feel..put urself in my shoes b4 u get mad..u know u haf a hot temper..so pls..n u r nt da only 1 serving ns..n i do understand n nv complained abt at..so rest assure abt tis can..i love u..n is willing to do anyting tat is within my reach for u..last nite was a torture..my heart broke when u say i dun treat u as my bf..so pls dun say these hurtful tings again..i know u dun really mean it..

be careful when u go brunei k k..? ill be tinking of u nite n day..so u jus concentrate on ur ting..dun wan u to get hurt or wat..jia you jia you..i'll be waiting for u at da airport da day u come back..no worries..i love u..noting can replace u..

corpse bride..!!

2005-10-05T23:21:00.000+08:00

dear dear brought me watch corpse bride last wed..very nice can..like dark humour kind of ting ba..though da story line was ok..like kinda can predict kind..but overall still gd..i gif it a 3.5/5..since its a movie tat i been wanting to watch ever since da trailer came out..haha..tks dear..=)

somebody touch me 2day..like he always do..yest he 1st surprised me wif da "nightmare b4 christmas" wallet..which i liked it very much..2day..despite da fact tat he bked out late..like ard 7plus..came to tamp to meet me for jus less than an hr..so swt..n he gotta rush back to sembawang to bk in later.."jus so tat i can see u" he says..knowing tat i donated my blood 2day..n tat i would be too lazy to go buy my dnr once i reach home..so as to ensure i eats n buy breakfast for tmr..tks dear..despite da fact tat i always go to up north to meet u from mon-thurs..hehe..=P yes u have proved wat u wanna prove to me..n i truly believe in u..=)

im still pondering abt my sign on + study ting..no $$ to study n 6months more to da recruitment..hope i haf da patient n pray i can get da study award..if nt..i really dunno wat to do le..

happiness found once again..

2005-10-02T23:30:00.000+08:00

hmz..here it goes..official announcement peps..some of u mite already know..but jus wanna let da rest know..it mite nt be a very big deal to some of u..heart breaking for some..(thick skinned me..im real sorry abt it..)..but im attached..!!

yes..i found him..da potential one..its been 2months le..wondering wat im doing..? yes..dating..haha~ working n dating in fact..tks to my patient wif fate (ya rite..=P) its been yrs since i know u..rejected ur dates..=P contacting each other on n off via sms..i decided to go out wif him..dunno y also..jus feel tat its time..n there n tat we hit off..

we share so many common interest..be it my siao on military..movies..food..even characters..it sounds scary..but tat wat brought us closer..sharing these tings together..some ppl mite say opp attracts..but so far..we learn to adapt to each other..da feeling is jus rite..comfy..=) so much to say..jus dunno where to start..

n oh yes..ive gotta over "tat person"..haha..like finally rite..? after so many failed once..he totally won him over..he's da 1st to worry so much abt me..be it physically..mentally..even financially..

ok..enough of him..proceed wif da recent happenings..east district set up a committee to do our part wif the commounity..[heart bond] is da name..aim of da grp is to help n provide our service to metta special sch..sch tat provides special education to da special ones..voted dy chairman..i know i dun deserve it..coz due to da time n effort tat im able to commit..but i'll still try my best..see wat i can do to help them..those east clts..pls offer ur help whenever they need..upcoming projects r e.g camp feast for da special kids..its a very meaningful proj n hope u guys feel da same as us too..

work been bored..as usual..opted to work 8hrs a day from mon-thurs instead of coming on sat to earn da extra cash..had a deal wif dear to go ecp every sat to exercise..hehe..=) n yes..more ppl left..lucky 1 tis wk..my break cum lunch time kaki from another time..mr pan jia yao..congrats on ur perm job...all da best for ur future endeavours..

nov is coming..n i yet to tink of a way to work n attend ncc activities...tink i really gotta cut down so much on ncc if i wanna survive..haiz..=( but..i'll still go for wat i can go for..nco band camp..n if possible..i wan go camp pin..!! nv go camp pin as a clt b4..always missed it coz of other activities...

*im sry if i upset some of u coz of my gd news..hope u peps can gif me ur blessings n pls stay in contact wif me still..it may sounds cruel..but i still wanna be frenz..

ciaoz..

officially outcasted

2005-09-21T00:44:00.000+08:00

wonderful..ive been officially outcasted..by my own sister..

had a bad dream last nite..dreamt tat my own sis (nt gonna say which 1)..is going away..n not coming back..telling me..da last to know..on da very day of da departure..when i saw her packing her stuff n buying air tickets via phone..=~( n best ting is..i dunno y i dreamt it was happening at our old hse..haiz..feel so sad..

been da 2nd wk since i took money from dad..EVEN SINCE I GOT MY ONE WHOLE MONTH SALARY..!! jus in case some ppl doesnt know..sad tat nw no1 tries to understand me nowadays..nt even my own kin..=~( i can feel tat SHE doesnt wans to talk to me..kicking me aside..ever since i 1]refuse to help sis to do da business ting..(nt tat i dun wan to help..jus tat i dun wish to be involve in business stuff as i know i haf a chance to screw up..u wan me go up mountain go down sea..die on ur behalf i dun mind..can help in watever but tat...) 2] after listening to dad's complain..nt tat im denying all tat..but haf u listen to my side of story..? i tried nt to see doc..save money..go work while im sick..but i cant take it..my body cant take it..n im really at home resting..plus u know i dun really shop..i hardly buy stuff..except for da usual t-shirts tat i aim for very long...

really feeling down..been losing slp lately..hafing being treated like tat..i jus wan da gd old times back..da coffees..da going out..they hardly haf time also..or rather they onli bother tat whether im earning to feed myself..am i doing da rite tings..go ahead..complain abt me all u wan..like u all usually do...where r u gals when i needed u..? getting disappointed wif wat i wan..discouragement is all i got..i wan to study..i wan go sign on..but they dun haf da vacancy nw..wat u expect me to do but wait..? i am still working..i am trying my best if can avoid ncc activties..but do u all realise it..? i do need ur support too..but guess u all r jus bz shaping ur life..jus take care..dun over worked urself...health is equally imptly in life..

ciaoz...

work work work $ $ $

2005-09-16T23:14:00.000+08:00

$$$..haiz..though i dun really care..but still its a need more than a want..n da need is raising..or well..jus haf to try to more days n more hours tis month than..missed a wk of work due to spec coz 3 somemore..(still i got ungrateful brats tat does not know hw to appreciate our help...pls get urself together n look at da whole picture..!! hello..!!?? any1 at home...=/ )

more n more ppl r leaving in my company..!! (btw..im refering to those who came in same time as me..) 1st its mark..irwan..wee siong..jas..nw even SHER..!! omg..all my slack party going to be dismissed le..arghz..haha..but..oh well..they left for a gd reason..sch start n for da gals..they got a gd job wif a not bad pay..so all da best peps..!! gd luck..!

here r da pics tat mark+wee siong took on his last day..haha..

1st to go..mark..! haha...~ =P nice chap..very crappy..got a leg wif my sup..hmz..=/ haha..jus kidding...=P

our dear team leader (TL)..!! haha~ no lar..jus his rep..=D

last day of our TL...wee siong..da whole of TTA 13 (my team)..

our own personnel pantry..da pride n glory of TTA 13..! haha..always got meow meow come steal our food de...hmz..=/ n tks to our TL..who replanishes it wif 4 jumbo cans of pringles..which by nw already gone..haha..=P like last than 4 days..? haha~

my work place...da com 2nd from da rite @ da corner there use to be my work station..but got shifted to da other side..(cannot see from here..its to da left) coz got new ppl come in n tat my sup wan to diff ppl doing diff tings..so..haiz..

ncc day dnr...

2005-09-05T14:34:00.000+08:00

da 3 awardees from east of da nite...2nd last dish..fried rice...oh well..wat can u expect from occ..but food was better than last yr's of coz..hehe..tks to small cat also..help me peel da prawns..haha...=P

tks to all who have clapped for me..hehe..despite da fact tat i almost tripped when i was abt to receive da first award of da day..was really touch when i saw da east clts n cadets standing up n clapping n cheering for each n every of da east clts n of coz mdm devi..

cheers to east family..n may our traddtion continues forever and da family stay strong n united forever...love u guys lots...

i tink we were da only district tat took district photos tat day..haha..lots of chaos n afford was taken to take tis pic..haha..

had lots of fun on tat day..with our dress code of coz..tink i was best dressed as compared to da previous yrs..haha..tks baby for all ya help..buying da tie n stuff like tat..love u lots..n da rest of da gang too..for da ideas of escorts etc..haha..will rem tis day to da end of my life..forever...

last but nt least..tks dear for coming to pick me up on after da ting..for buying lunch over to my hse on da day as u scare tat i wont be able to make it back in time if we were to go out for lunch..really appreciate wat u have done for me so far..despite da fact tat we live so far away..u always make da pt to send me home..ensuring im home safely..love u lots lots..

i still believe in fate...n loving it too..

2005-08-20T00:40:00.000+08:00

hey peps...haha..long time no blog le...ndp's over..no more sat prog le..hehe..jus kidding..tks for all ur wishes peps..meant alot to me..

work has been bored..everyting do da same..lucky its onli temp..i will die if im to work in a office for long can..!! haha...ppl there is nice..so is my tong shi...better than i expect..lucky me i was post to da bigger grp..manage to get pei in..but she went to another dept..n she seems to be suffering..poor gal..shld haf pull her in my dept instead..here quite slack..still got rm for snake eating..haha..=P so bad rite..but been getting lots of snacks to bring to work..so alrite lar..=P tks...

fate has been great to me recently...some nice n lucky tings has been happening to me..=) those who knows knows..=) life's been gd..jus tat im missing attitudez..!! oei..when r we mtg up..?? coffee..?? mid nitez..?? i know u gals has been working ur ass off too...especially ms marie france where her pay kena cheated..oh my..hope u got it solve le..didnt get da time to go ard blog hopping also...msg me soon ya..? though my msgs is going to hit 1000 when its only half of da month..?? oh well..no1 to blame..who ask da office cant talk can onli sms..haha~

ciaoz...tmr got sispec visit..waking up at 5am..hopefully...plus bbq..!!

sorry guys...been lazy to blog abt boring job..! haha~

2005-08-20T00:28:00.000+08:00

our "dare" gathering...to ndp countdown fireworks..!! haha...~

its guan's bd..!! haha..kena ill-treat jus to eat da cake

happy dare'05 family..of coz..some "bai" is nt here..haha..n "loh"
too..! =P n more actually..vince went gf pei-ing..

da "botak" gang

haapy birthday singapore...!!

2005-08-09T23:51:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 40TH BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE...!!

congrats to all NCC ndp participants..u gals have done us proud...!! excellent job done..! cant imagine marching with other gals other than u gals...hehe..=P all of us shld give ourselves a pant on our shoulders..!

too tired to type le..jus wanna say keep up da gd work...all pics pls refer to ck webby..hehe..=P

风吹过的夏天

2005-08-06T00:22:00.000+08:00

还记得昨天那个夏天
微风吹过的一瞬间
似乎吹翻一切
只剩寂寞肯沉淀

如今风依旧在追
秋天的雨跟随
心中的热却不退
仿佛继续闭着双眼
熟悉的脸又会浮现在眼前

蓝色的思念
突然演变成了
阳光的夏天
空气中的温暖
不会很遥远
冬天也仿佛
不再留恋

绿色的思念
挥手对我说一声'四季不变
不过一季的时间
又再回到从前
那个被风吹过的夏天

graduation

2005-07-29T00:15:00.000+08:00

congrats to all DARE graduates..!! after 3 yrs..we've made it..!! pic to da left...<-- see those botaks..? nw they in army le...jia you..!! 2 more months to go..! rem to invite me n helyn to u guys pop hor..we sure will rem to buy coke for u all de...haha...=P

pic taken nt all inside...some of them went to look for their parents...=/ nvm...got 1 quite full of aero ppl de...upload once i get it from my dear gal helyn..! =) so exciting to see them yest...haha~

1st day at work...

2005-07-26T22:50:00.000+08:00

finally...sis fren got me a job at iras..2day 1st day..nv late ok..!! haha...tks to kw..gave me morning call though he no nid to wake up so early..xie xie siao mao...!

was raining heavily in da morning..wat a fine day to slp..but too bad...manage to get out of hse on time..very scare tat i'll be late..coz traffic jam down da rd to red "uknowwat" sch...those parents..haiz..manage to reach there early..lucky...didnt get lost also..haha...coz da signs are everywhere..thank god its so near da mrt..=P

was nt da onli temp they hiring..in fact they nid lots more..any1 interested..? quite nice deal actually...bad ting is...most of da peps going same dept wif me...actually knows each other..! arghz..those who knows me well will knoe..im a very "men re" kind of person..actually depends on my mood..? haha...so quite lonely there...=( wat to do..niways..will try my best to mix wif them..tink im da youngest there can..n wif da least experience...=( nvm..getting pok pok in also..she coming on fri..but most prob diff dept..but nvm..still same building..at least lunch gt ppl acc me...=D

1st 2 days of work r training..but still gt $$ take...=P kept dozing off actually...coz was really bored lor...plus da weather....haha..lucky i was nt da onli 1..there's another guy who was dozing off also..n da best ting is he is sitting beside da assist manager giving da lecture..! haha~ but she's a nice lady..keep giving us break..so nt tat bad..

graduation tmr..!! haha...like finally can..after so long..getting my dip...so long nv see da rest lehz..wondering hw da botaks doing...=P or rather are they coming..? haiz..heard tat some of them got field camp/range..but really hope tat they can come..n we can go out after tat..so long nv meet them liaoz lor..miss da gang...haha..=) will post pics..! so watch out for tis space...

very slpy nw..2day got malay class..hmz..guess wat..i actually enjoy going to malay class..coz da chikgu very interesting..but too bad next 2wks no lesson...he going overseas..n plus national day...saya mahu tido...=P

selamat malam...!

wat is love abt...

2005-07-20T12:23:00.000+08:00

THIS IS WHAT LOVE IS ALL ABOUT:

It was a busy morning, approximately 8:30 am, when an elderly gentleman in his 80's, arrived to have stitches removed from his thumb. He stated that he was in a hurry, as he had an appointment at 9:00 am. I took his vital signs and had him take a seat, knowing it would be over an hour before someone would to able to see him. I saw him looking at his watch and decided, since I was not busy with another patient, I would evaluate his wound. On exam it was well healed, so I talked to one of the doctors, got the needed supplies to remove his sutures and redress his wound. While taking care of his wound, we began to engage in conversation I asked him if he had another doctor's appointment this morning, as he was in such a hurry. The gentleman told me no, that he needed to go to the nursing home to eat breakfast with his wife. I then inquired as to her health.

He told me that she had been there for a while and that she was a victim of Alzheimer Disease. As we talked, and I finished dressing his wound, I asked if she would be worried if he was a bit late. He replied that she no longer knew who he was, that she had not recognized him in five years now. I was surprised, and asked him. "And you still go every morning, even though she doesn't know who you are?" He smiled as he patted my hand and said. "She doesn't know me, but I still know who she is."I had to hold back tears as he left, I had goose bumps on my arm, and thought, "That is the kind of love I want in my life".

True love is neither physical, nor romantic.True love is an acceptance of all that is, has been, will be, and will not be.With all the jokes and fun that are in e-mails, sometimes there are some that come along that have an important message, and this is one of those kind. Just had to share it with you all.

Oh, by the way, peace is seeing a sunset, and knowing who to thank.

"The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the best of everything that comes along their way."

a job well done..!!

2005-07-18T13:25:00.000+08:00

haha...a job well done to all who organized participate and help out ncc day parade yest..i meant only da parade part..=P

ncc day parade 2005

parade commander: s/clt izzat [east]

parade 2ic: clt kent ong [east]

goh commander: s/clt jennifer (tat's me) [east]

goh 2ic: clt gavin sim [east]

ncc lang flag bearer: clt suhailah [east]

east flag bearer: clt melvin toh [east]

color rsm: ssg khai [east]

haha...so many east for main appointment holders..!! hehe~ so happy...yest parade was a success..at least we manage to halt togather..though i still feel tat afternoon's rehearsal was better...=P oh well...for my last ncc day parade...as in taking part wise..i will still come back n view da parade in da future..it was a great turn out..none of da land contingent cadets fall out....they even sang ncc song n read da pledge loudly..great job guys n gals....though at 1st da part where we have to wait so LONG for da vips to arrive...=/ me n kent was actually talking to each other to keep ourselves awake...hehe..=P ops...=X i got so many tings to say..too much tat i dunno hw to type it out...

a big THANK YOU to RSM...thank u for da chance n guidence u've given me...all da faith n trust in me..thank u sir..hope i didnt let u down..n also to all who haf given me ur well wishes n words of encouragement..thanks a million..each n every1 of them means alot to me..thank u so so much..

n also nt forgetting all da east gold units...congrats..!! overal best ncc unit..victoria school..!! haha~ finally is east district's turn..!! haha~ u guys have done a great job...keep it up...

next up..to do farewell gifts for 2lt tiger n sgt mus..sad to say..all gd tings haf to come to an end..but still i wish at least 2lt tiger would stay..*hint hint* but he got his path to take..wish them all da best in their future...2lt tiger tink so far was da best tat any district can ever get..n hope tat he is able to solve da prob..n frenz is da best ting 1 can ever get..=) thank u sir for all da guidence and advise u haf given me..ive learnt alot from u..thank u once again..

nt feeling too gd nw...da dumb weather plus da darn cough...ciaoz..

yet another slpless nite..

2005-07-12T03:56:00.000+08:00

hmz..having another slp-less nite..its already 4am in da morning n im still wide awake...tink i slpt too much last nite..=P was practically weared out..as i slpt 4am in da morning on sat woke up at 7 for ndp...catch f4 wif my poly buddies at midnite...n went for parade rehearsal da next day...hehe..=P

been tinking alot recently...abt getting a job...relationships...ncc...getting but lost...soon i guess..or am i starting to drift away again..??

abt job...applied for da pilot..yes nw every1 noes..despite da fact tat i hardly says..but seems tat some peps asked n those who noes jus told..n it jus got out..didnt really wan ppl to know coz i was jus trying..thought i may nt be da pilot material..jus wanna gif it a shot b4 i go for da real deal...going for another test str after ndp...a 5hr test..heard from helyn tat its very hard..got to do wif ur limbs coordinations...oh well..jus gotta try my best..nuting to lose..

gotta get a part-time job soon..really need da cash n b4 mum starts to nag again..nt tat i really like staying at home..but..hmz..lazy i guess..=) but really hope to learn driving b4 i start work..really getting nowhere here...

abt relationships...is it hunting me again..? i dunno..really hope tat i doesnt...really trying to get on wif my life..arghz..hate to tink of da happy times..weird rite..? oh well..jus making me feel lonelier ever..haha..tink ppl like kai n ting2 mite understand wat im refering to ba...=P though i really hope to be in 1...but dun wanna rush tings..n get into 1 jus becoz i wan to..starting to feel bit late...was really hoping to be in 1 for da long run b4 da big day..but sometings u jus gotta wait for fate to arrange rite..? realised tat my judgement is very poor in relationships..making da wrong decisions..missing da chance..or make others in pain...recent (nt very lar...) went out wif da trinity (they dunno dats da name i got for us..jus named onli...=P)..got to know tat he broke up wif her..was happy n sad at da same time..but i noe tat i cant possible tell him hw i feel..i missed my chance..n he has his life nw..dun wanna ruin da friendship tat we've bulit for years..hope for da best for him..for he is da most gentleman guy i ever met......

abt ncc...really hope to do a gd job for ncc day parade...my last ever ncc major event tat im gonna involve wif ba...real sad to know tat gd tings jus gotta end somewhere...=~( though mite really hope to continue on...guess tis mite be 1 of da reasons tat im taking tings 1 step at a time..? so tat i can do more stuff in ncc...? haven even get my gold cert n outstanding clt..shld have applied last yr..arghz..=/ come to tis yr...dunno even see a letter...apply also no use...really hate to leave jus like tat...some clts actually came n ask me when im leaving...hoping tat i can stay longer...tks alot guys..really touch..jus hope u peps can do east district proud...n continue bring up da standards of da cadets n corps...=D

ndp shows has starting...last sat jus had da 1st ne show..it was great....was telling others tat dunno y suddenly their marching n wheeling become so gd..haha...guess its really da crowd than..gd job gals..n also da few male clts marching..=) heard tat there was 1 cdo red lion broke his legs..hope he's alrite...get well soon..

go play some games liaoz..ciaoz..

thank u all da clts who helped out in camp feast 3

2005-07-06T23:43:00.000+08:00

*to all da clts that attended camp feast phase 3..

[thank you all for all ur help and support that u have given to me..hope u guys n gals learnt something new and had enjoyed urself like i do...looking forward to see u guys n gals for da next camp/activity...take care.. ]

jus finished camp feast 3...haven hold camp oic post for very long le..tink also but rusty..though no major cock ups..but kept missing out some small stuffs...lucky got yd n 2lt tiger to remind me..=P to me..it was a camp well run...hehe...at least da cadets r nt going back late...=D

still got report to write...haiz...hopefully can finish by sat...if nt must wait for some time le... cant wait for ndp tis sat...1st ne show..missed da trg last wk due to ncc day parade..feel bit bad..but was happy tat e ncc day parade rehearsal went well also...was praying so hard tat i would be able to halt da goh at the correct spot so tat tis part wont be cancaelled..if nt it will be another disappointment again...=) lucky me enough..hehe..da cadets...though didnt march tat well...was able to keep da spacing between them...n da spacing between da markers are still acceptable...*phew*

da reppalling team was activated again..supposely...for ncc day parade performance...was quite sad when i heard there will be another performance tis yr..but..it was cancalled...=P nt tat im bad..but was quite glad when hearing tat...coz i wont be missing out any fun than...love reppalling...it was da 1st ever high element stuff tat i ever dare to do..(exculding obs pri5 camp...=P) hope can do another 1 for ncc...hmz...

very tired le...gotta go rest le....ciaoz...

ZzZzzzz......

saf day + ncc day

2005-07-01T01:00:00.000+08:00

happy national cadet corps day everyone...104 years ago..on tis very day...da very first army cadet corps was set up...let up rem n celebrate the day where ncc day is founded..!! cadets..pls dun fall aslp on parade while listening to dr beng's speech..hehe...=P

to all nsf n regulars...happy saf day...=D u guys too..enjoy da speech..!!

confused n lost..am i doing da rite ting..? i do hope so..

2005-06-26T00:07:00.000+08:00

wat is done is done..lets jus move on alrite..? jennifer on 24hrs hp standby..=D

will be going JB tmr..grandma's sister's grand daughter's wedding lunch...get to go jalan jalan..but i still can be contacted..jus msg me..will try to reply if there's a need..no worries..will nid to do tings to get rid of da boredom..hehe..=P

dunno whether i posted tis story b4 or not...so..here it is..

One day, when I was a freshman in high school, I saw a kid from my class was walking home from school.His name was Kyle. It looked like he was carrying all of his books.I thought to myself, "Why would anyone bring home all his books on a Friday? He must really be a nerd."

I had quite a weekend planned (parties and a football game with my friends tomorrow afternoon), so I shrugged my shoulders and went on.As I was walking, I saw a bunch of kids running toward him.They ran at him, knocking all his books out of his arms and tripping him so he landed in the dirt.His glasses went flying, and I saw them land in the grass about ten feet from him. He looked up and I saw this terrible sadness in his eyes.

My heart went out to him. So, I jogged over to him and as he crawled around looking for his glasses, and I saw a tear in his eye.As I handed him his glasses, I said, "Those guys are jerks.They really should get lives." He looked at me and said, "Hey thanks!"There was a big smile on his face.It was one of those smiles that showed real gratitude.I helped him pick up his books, and asked him where he lived.As it turned out, he lived near me, so I asked him why I had never seen him before.He said he had gone to private school before now.I would have never hung out with a private school kid before.We talked all the way home, and I carried some of his books.

He turned out to be a pretty cool kid.I asked him if he wanted to play a little football with my friends. He said yes.We hung out all weekend and the more I got to know Kyle, the more I liked him, and my friends thought the same of him.Monday morning came, and there was Kyle with the huge stack of books again.I stopped him and said, "Boy, you are gonna really build some serious muscles with this pile of books everyday!" He just laughed and handed me half the books.Over the next four years, Kyle and I became best friends.

When we were seniors, we began to think about college.Kyle decided on Georgetown, and I was going to Duke.I knew that we would always be friends, that the miles would never be a problem.He was going to be a doctor, and I was going for business on a football scholarship.Kyle was valedictorian of our class. I teased him all the time about being a nerd.He had to prepare a speech for graduation.I was so glad it wasn't me having to get up there and speak.

Graduation day, I saw Kyle. He looked great.He was one of those guys that really found himself during high school.He filled out and actually looked good in glasses.He had more dates than I had and all the girls loved him.Boy, sometimes I was jealous.Today was one of those days.I could see that he was nervous about his speech.So, I smacked him on the back and said, "Hey, big guy, you'll be great!"He looked at me with one of those looks (the really grateful one) and smiled."Thanks," he said.

As he started his speech, he cleared his throat, and began."Graduation is a time to thank those who helped you make it through those tough years.Your parents, your teachers, your siblings, maybe a coach...but mostly your friends...I am here to tell all of you that being a friend to someone is the best gift you can give them.I am going to tell you a story."I just looked at my friend with disbelief as he told the story of the first day we met.He had planned to kill himself over the weekend.He talked of how he had cleaned out his locker so his Mom wouldn't have to do it later and was carrying his stuff home.He looked hard at me and gave me a little smile."Thankfully, I was saved. My friend saved me from doing the unspeakable."I heard the gasp go through the crowd as this handsome, popular boy told us all about his weakest moment.I saw his Mom and dad looking at me and smiling that same grateful smile.

Not until that moment did I realize it's depth.Never underestimate the power of your actions.With one small gesture you can change a person's life.

"Friends are angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble remem bering how to fly."

There is no beginning or end..

Yesterday is history.

Tomorrow is mystery.

Today is a gift.

its getting hot...

2005-06-19T12:25:00.000+08:00

weather is getting hot..n da temp is raising..be it da environment..of da ppl...

jus came back from spec2 n ndp yest...very tired ahz..n franky speaking..so does my temper..only tat it blew up bit yest..sry to those whom i blasted at...lots of ppl got angry with each other during spec 2...some i can understand..but some..i tink it jus tat u got "pian jian" wif tat person...i still believe in "ren zhi chu xing ben shen"...im nt trying to be da holy person..but y cant each of us jus give in a little..try to understand each other better...or if u haf any unhappiness wif tat person..talk it out...rather than keep it in urself..its a very nt gd feeling u know...

getting sick le....been coughing since yest..n da sore throat is coming..!! arghz..hate getting sore throat..so hard to recover one can...sianz..

tried my best...guess im jus nt gd enough...

2005-06-11T00:03:00.000+08:00

hey..jus came back from spec p1..nt bad..got new nick name nw..justice bao..=) guess they really didnt tried da "i am god" ting..

result of da PC selection was out..got a called from rsm after da final selection jus nw..got to noe tat i didnt get it...=~( appointed contingent commander instead...wat to do..guess i wasnt gd enough..n tat i dun haf wat it takes..to be "fit"..able to jump sky n dive water...watever..gonna take watever they give...

cried out bit when i heard da news..was really sad n disappointed in myself..didnt put in enough effort to..am still sad...haiz..dunno wat i wan say lehz..ciaoz..

start of "ncc month"

2005-06-05T11:29:00.000+08:00

yoz yoz..long time no blog le..haha..its either nuting to blog abt...or...back to me..too lazy to do it..hehe...=P sorry..

has been really cbl lately....nt tat really nuting to do...mr "tiger" rec me to a job tat i always wanted to do..which was in my mind way b4 i finish sch...tks to tis chance..really got an eye opener on hw private camps runs...

was intro to become camp instructors for tis company tat runs camps for kids as in pri sch n sec sch...nt tat bad..learn lots of new stuff...cheers..keeping da energy level high...was really tot tat i can handle da kids..as they were onli pri5..but who knows..they're nt as bad as i tot they were..they were such a bunch of cute little ones...like da camp fire nite n da last day amazing race....its was really great..dunno hw to describe..simply words..fun...!! ( had bit of sunburn though..=P)

hope can get more jobs like tis..hehe...*hint hint* =D

ndp trgs started...tiring as usual...number of ppl as usual...nt gd..haiz..jus dun understand wat they r tinking..its like a chance in a life time u get to participate in ndp..yet they jus dun cherish it...hw can CIP be more impt than ndp trg..? come on lor..tis is also a kind of community service if u ask me...parents dun allow..say they take up too much time..nt as if da kids r out playing..they r shagging their xxx out here to give singaporeans a good show can...cant they be anymore understanding...? haiz...very disappointed in them...manage to get some clts to at least cover up..though there were guys..wat to do.."all gals contingent"...=P

june is here..!! tat means camps r ard da corners...n for starters...spec coz phase 1...!! cant get anymore excited..hasnt been getting da chance to get into spec coz..tis my chance..but due to da starting of poly...lots of clts have to back out due to rejected LOAs..haiz..they must be disappointed...wat to do..its make tings diff for oic n 2ic also...but come on..wat r stuff tat east clts cant do...rite..?? jia you~ jia you~ jia you~

got lots to write..but when i start typing..everyting goes missing...haha...niways...need to start packing le..bking in 2nite..ciaoz..

[quote]

2005-05-24T11:42:00.000+08:00

" The greatest thing you'll ever learn, is to love and be loved in return."

Mouglin Rouge

lost in da middle of no where...yet again...

2005-05-08T01:49:00.000+08:00

yoz..long time no blog le...nuting much to talk abt also...was rotting at home most of da time..haha..watching tv..yeah..back to da life of couch potato once again...hehe~

still dunno wat to do..as it..my future...wan to go study..but no vitamin M...need to go work 1st..these few days..peps kept asking...y i dun wan go local U..?? oh well...for da fact..i dun really like studying under pressure..i'll feel fustrated..nt tat going overseas wont haf any...but...jus dun like da way it works here...look at da way they r messing it up nw..shifting da poly semesters...everyting looks like its in a mess...heck it..=P

i need some advise on my signing on..peps..pls leave a tag or sms me on wat u tink...tks..
airforce is da main org tat is of my interest...but..vocation wise..big trouble...positions im of interest in...

1) Weapon System Officer Air Defence Artillery (ADA)
You'll be in charge of operating our state-of-the-art air defence systems, and to engage and stop intruders with our short and medium range anti-aircraft guns and missiles. ou'll function as the pilot's right-and man on board the transport aircraft and will be responsible for plotting all navigational procedures and flight paths.

2) Air Engineering Officer
The ChallengeAs an Air Engineering Officer (AEO), you'll work in a highly modern environment where you'll have every opportunity to lead in:- the upgrading and modification of current systems capability- develop programmes for the maintenance of aircraft and weapons- the management of information systemsWe're looking for a new generation of talented, dedicated, resourceful, innovative AEOs.

3) Senior Technician
The ChallengeFrom aircraft propulsion systems and avionics to modern weapon systems and aviation instruments, the state-of-the-art equipment that the Air Force prides itself on will all be in your hands. You'll also have a chance to develop your leadership skills as you'll be in charge of a team of highly trained specialists.In addition to being posted overseas for attachments, which will help to expand your horizons and gain exposure to new methods of working, there is also the opportunity for you to earn professional recognition as a Licensed Aircraft Engineer if you pass the relevant examinations conducted by the Civil Aviation Authority of Singapore.

if nt...navy any recommandation...?? need to save enough money to go aus to study...haiz...niways...still looking for part time...any1..?? help..!!

tks peps...ciaoz...

2005-04-26T20:36:00.000+08:00

isnt he cute...!!!?? im melting.....

i tink im in love...=P

2005-04-25T20:25:00.000+08:00

wif ZHENG YUAN CHANG..!! haha...especially after watching "qiang wei zhi lian"...

u guys must be tinking tat tis gal is crazy/childish....hw old liaoz...still go "mi" idol...but i really cant help it...

i nv felt like tis b4....tinking of him makes me smile...hehe...

oh well....guess it will go away soon....but da feeling is so strong...its so diff from hw i felt after i watch other drama...didnt even felt like tis for zai zai can...oh my..kept having funny tots abt him..haha..dun tink dirty ahz..jus tot he mite come to sg or wat...=P

arghz...hw i wish jh didnt lost his hp..n he would bring it to taiwan...than can ask him help me buy stuff abt ZHENG YUAN CHANG...he's really really cute can...i like da way he talks...=D

who got "ai qing mo jie"..?? lend me can....im dying of seeing him...haha~

"ou siang ju"

2005-04-24T13:00:00.001+08:00

jus spent da last 12 hrs watching finish "qiang wei zhi lian"...cried a few times towards da last few disc...its really very touching..be it da love...or...da family...hw i wish...da ending is always like wat it is in da drama..but reality is..its nt...

i like to watch "ou siang ju" aka idol drama..though some ppl mite tot tat they're bit fake..childish...or wat..ever since meteor garden...im in love with them...

"qiang wei zhi lian"...tis story involves a family of complicated relationship of a movie star...where all da siblings r onli...so called mother related to each other...their father is all of diff men...there is da eldest sis...han fu rong...eldest bro...han jing....little bro..han kui...most imptly..claimed to be da ugly n fat...bai he...

1 day...bai he's gram died..gram left a letter ask her go find her mother...which is da star..han li..but seems tat da so called mother hates her...as bai he is actually da daughter of her gd fren chen siao ying..but she kept her in da hse as she tot tat bai he is da daughter of her most loved man...zheng ye..but da fact is..bai he is nt his child..but of another man...tat han li had a son wif..which is da youngest son...han kui..

da love part...at 1st bai he fell in love wif han jing..along wif han kui..which also like da bro..in da end..both men fall in love wif bai he..but han kui is blood related to her....so he cant marry his sister..which he wanted to so badly...its really hurts me when i see da 3 of them struggling wif each other..whenver bai he got any probs wif jing...kui will always be there to support her as a "brother"...can really imagine hw hurting is tat..love her yet..cant be wif her..bai he being inferior when wif jing..as ppl often mock her..being nt gd enough for him as he is tall n handsome..all da comments she have to stand...haiz...=~(

but gd ting..in da end...happy ending...as always...wat i wanna see also...am still feeling da impact of da story nw..really feel sad n hurt for kui...u mite tink im jus being cry baby or emotional or its jus a show...but..really...sad...=~~~(

i cant help but to feel da pain...hurt...for da characters in da show..i cried for almost every drama tat ive watched...hehe...=P sometimes...for after effect...even hearing da song..cant believe ba...coz i dun look like da kind rite..?? oh well...i dun really understand y....who knows..

叶子

叶子是不会飞翔的翅膀
翅膀是落在天上的叶子
天堂原来应该不是妄想
只是我早已经遗忘
当初怎么开始飞翔

孤单是一个人的狂欢
狂欢是一群人的孤单
爱情原来的开始是陪伴
但我也渐渐地遗忘
当时是怎样有人陪伴

我一个人吃饭旅行到处走走停停
也一个人看书写信自己对话谈心
只是心又飘到了哪里
就连自己看也看不清
我想我不仅仅是失去你

its finally over....after 3yrs...happy/sad..?

2005-04-17T00:31:00.000+08:00

wasnt willing to hand up my last ppr in fri...was feeling tat..if i hand in...tat's it..everyting will be over..i'll be lost..n in fact..tats hw im feeling nw...

hmz..lets see...i wan to tks all peps who helped me pull thru tis 3yrs of polys...of all da sweat n tears...thanks for being there to help me....for some1 who is always late..pon sch..hehe..tks for all da notes tat u peps help me take..all da help in my tutorials..da period when i stayed in hospital..even help me with proj tat i didnt even know wth was it..hehe...thanks alot guys..

to bren: for all 3yrs u've been there wif me..haha..pei me change class for like 3sems..?? haha..i tink onli 1 sem nv change rite..? all da help u have given me...really..tks ALOT..dunno wat to do w/o ur help...=P all da best in ur future endeavour....hope u get da job tat u wan...success to u all da way...mr nice guy...

to jh: tks pal..for all da help u've given..hehe..we always take advantage of u but since as a gentle giant..u always dun mind n help all u can..nuting to say...=P nice working wif u...fyps...grp projs..u r always there when we need help...xie le..

to helyn: hey gal...!! haha...my crappy gal fren...nice knowing u...really..nv knew i could be making close frenz in poly...really..had some probs during yr1....but after knowing u..tings start to change u know...tks for helping me take all da notes when im nt ard..love ya..NV forget me k..??

still got all da frenz ive know...wanted to spell shortfom but..nvm..haha...yen shun, jia wei, jason, wen min, wen jin,wei te, melvin loh, solomon, vincent, han qi, choon guan, meng yi, jialiang, sam and lots lots more...tks for all da tolaration..hehe..i know sometimes its hard to put up wif me..like wat bren like to say...im a da siao jie...(like real can...=/) really nice knowing u guys...all da ktvs...hehe...hope we can go out often...forget me not..all da best in NS..hehe..=P

im gonna miss u guys...n gal x 2 of coz..im gonna miss going to sch..weird but..ya..gonna miss da long trip to dover..haha...gonna miss DARE...all da craziness tat we've been having..da lameness...da singing..haha..everyting...really lost for words nw..feel like saying lots of stuff..but...u know...nvm...=P

results be out in like...2wks..?? we shall see whether its da last of me in SP...=)

u guys must be wondering where my tag box went...rite..?? ive been looking for it high n low too..but tink its due to my accidently double post..it went into my rantings...haha...oh well..guessed its solved nw..finally..

I NEED A JOB...!! temp of coz..hopefully can no nid work on sat..since im going for ndp tis yr..hehe..=P

p/s: really really looking forward to mon chalet..hehe...cant wait for it to come..oh..btw..got lots time nw...pls..any1...feel free to look for me for a game of mahjong..hehe...=D

exams exams exams...

2005-04-09T02:00:00.000+08:00

2 down n 3 more to go..!!

Jia you all DARE students..!!

haywired weather = hayweird temper

2005-03-27T23:46:00.000+08:00

hmz..been bit hot tempered recently..need to simmer down...

sorry to all whom i shouted at or scolded at....really really didnt mean it..my thousands apologises...

2005-03-27T01:52:00.000+08:00

me n helyn..hmz..tink i look abit drank..?? haha..=P no lar..its b4 da dnr lehz..

2005-03-27T01:51:00.000+08:00

mm d n d grp pic of dare 05'

lost 5 bucks...wat a unlucky month...

2005-03-22T00:58:00.000+08:00

dunno wat to say...

i actually lost 5 bucks 2day....!! arghz...though it mite seems little to u guys..but it meant alot to me can....own sis lots of money...haiz..dun feel like mentioning..some wat related to da last post...haiz..going on hunger strike tis wk le..nid to save lots of money...

d n d was nt bad...got to see lots of "ice cream"..haha...short short dress...REALLY short...went for movie after tat...almost fall aslpt though...

thanks bai for da ride...hehe..he actually went to helyn's place to pick us up...=P had an little incident after tat...which made up all BIT late..but..its ok..haha...gd ting abt having a car..=D

dun really feel tat gd tis month...money's been an issue...been bugging me so tite tat i almost cant breath...bad accounting skills i must say...wat to do...still get to eat..dun worry..nt straving..jus feel so bad owning my sis so much...sorry n thanks...=)

i must say...my hfem proj grp is such a cute bunch..every1 of us snatching stuff to do..haha...=P wat to do..got such grp leader helyn...gt brendan somemore sia..haha..lucky me...

still got QEM n FYP to rush..arghz..!! i really hate tis sem...!!!!!!!!! cant wake up in time also...wat haf i done to u...!!?? y must u treat me like tis..?? give me a break can...!!?? arghz.................

ciaoz...

im all alone...

2005-03-19T00:49:00.001+08:00

im all alone...who is there to support me...?

none can i share my woes...none will understand...

making a fool out of myself..

wat am i going to do..??

2005-03-14T12:23:00.000+08:00

wat am i going to do after i grad..? tis question is still going thru my mind everyday...

ocs..?? senior tech..?? wso...?? anybody any clue..??

been arrowed to be chairman for rappelling com for affirmation...hmz...seems to be my last major event planning for my entire ncc career...sad sad...hope everyting will be a success...jus presented our very first aop to da heads last sat...not a bad response..showed them footage of our very first trg...demo of all da rappelling tat we're going to demo...haha..tried a new rappelling style on tues also..australian rappel..damn scary sia..wasnt really sure tat i wanna do it when it was my turn..but luckily got 2lt zul 2lt lin 2lt ridwan + da CLTs there to support n guide me along..manage to did it..though its nt tat nice..haha..somewat recalled my very first rappelling experience at asoc 3yrs back...haha...being stuck at da top..struggling...for like i tink at least 15mins till i manage to lower myself down to da ground..n tat was da starting...haha...still very glad tat i took tat very first step..tat lead to all da rappelling demos n performances tat we've done...=D

projs tests reports presentation..nw exams...everyting is coming 1 after another without stopping..really no time to catch a breath...really begining to feel bit stress liaoz...last yr somemore..dunno y...but got tis feeling tat i mite maybe..got a chance to retain..hopefully not...haiz...mite really haf to cheong for exams le..arghz....long time no go blading le.....

lots of peps has been taking driving test recently..congrats to bai...n grass..dun worry k...? try harder next time...n wen min...jia you..!! haha~~

gonna grad soon...feeling happy sad n lost at da same time..happy tat no need to study le..sad coz im gonna miss da gang...lost coz...I REALLY HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO DO..!!

any suggustions..??

ciaoz..

jus cant slp...

2005-03-07T02:47:00.000+08:00

hey...难得 im blogging 2 days in a row...

hmz..dunno y....isomnia..(is tis hw u spell it..??) has came back to hunt me...jus cant slp in da nite..its already going to be 3am in da morning n im still here blogging..haha..

lotsa tings been going thru my mind recently..especially wat am i going to do after i grad...always tot i had da plan..ready to be executed..but who knows..im still holding someting back tat till nt..i dunno wat is it...

da moment i close my eyes lying on my bed..questions will start to pour in...wat im i going to do..y aint i studying hard...y cant is my life like tis...?? where is all da time i used to have..where r all da times tat i use to spend..?? sat to me nw is jus resting at home...tats all i wanna do..unlike last time..use to like spending my wkends to da fullest..nt "wasting" time by staying at home n do nuting...use to haf no choice but to stay at home..nw i wish i can jus stay at home n do nuting..crazy gal u mite tink..perhaps sometings r jus meant to be tat way...

hmz..dunno wat im talking abt le....tink im going back to my vampire movie le..haha..lucky made sis to share da vcds wif me..if nt i really dunno wat to do le...oh ya..manage to catch da last part to moulin rouge jus nw...1 of my favs movie..coz got ewan mcgregor..hehe...n i really like tat story...super meaningful..n maybe coz of da tings tat happened when i watched tat show...love da songs in there too...still got da soundtrack wif me...hmz....

yest or rather da day b4..1 of my frenz ask me...iszit becoz u cant forget da past...? or rather am i still holding on to it...? gd question...i told him tat i had already let it go...n i do..i can accept another relationship...but there aint any tat im able to..or rather da feelings is nt there...da msg shldnt had came to me...da 1 b4 christmas...da 1 tat made me tink...tat 1 tat made me realise...perhaps...deep inside me..i do hope tat we still got a chance...?? which i do hope nt..as i jus wanna start afresh..?? reality is...i guess nt...we do nt haf 1.......jus hope tat u r happy rite nw...=)

wat is past...is over.....ciaoz...

come what may....

2005-03-06T21:33:00.000+08:00

Never knew I could feel like this
Like I have never seen the sky before
I want to vanish inside your kiss
Every day I love you more and more
Listen to my heart, can you hear it sings
Telling me to give you everything
Seasons may change, winter to spring
But I love you until the end of time

Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste
It all revolves around you
And there's no mountain too high
No river too wide
Sing out this song and I'll be there by your side
Storm clouds may gather
And stars may collide
But I love you until the end of time

Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day
Oh, come what may, come what may
I will love you, I will love you
Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place

Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day

am i missing out anyting...??

2005-03-02T00:40:00.000+08:00

been bz wif sch..?? am i..?? haha..or rather been doing sch stuff more recently..hanging out wif poly frenz more...gd ting..?? gd lar..but seems tat been left out somewhere but dunno where..

realise..friendship seems to be quite fragile at times..or rather..hard to be lasting..or rather..true friends r really nt easy to get..use to tink if u r true to them...be there for them..try to be understanding..(haf i been...?? i wonder too sometimes...) they will treat u back da same..i guess im really rather naive...i mite seems nt..but tink my close frenz..sisters shld know..im rather naive at times...how i hope i can really live in my own world...haha~

couldnt help but feel tat some gaps r getting bigger n bigger...fren(s) whom i use to go out wif most of da them seems to be bz wif other stuff...nt communicating...attitude change...haiz..

been bit lazy to blog recently...lazy get online also...dunno y...i wish tings were back to normal...i wish........

ciaoz..

p/s: projs n assignments r killers to yr3..!!! hate it.....................

change of email add...

2005-02-27T02:23:00.000+08:00

hey peps..pls take note of da following...

i've a change of email add...not really change..but more to i got 1 more email add...

personal : dot_sux@yahoo.com ==> new..!!
ncc matters: nccg3r@yahoo.com

so..pls kindly take note...thanks....

pls email me..for my dear frenz..so i can add ur email into my new address bk..thanks a million...!!!

ciaoz..

2005-02-24T15:54:00.000+08:00

搁浅

久未放晴的天空
依旧留着你的笑容
哭过却无法掩埋歉疚
风筝在阴天搁浅
想念还在等待救援
我拉着线复习你给的温柔
暴晒在一旁的寂寞
笑我给不起承诺
怎么会怎么会你竟原谅了我
我只能永远读着对白
读着我给你的伤害我
原谅不了我就请你当作我已不在
我睁开双眼看着空白
忘记你对我的期待
读完了依赖我很快就离开

mj session...hehe~

2005-02-20T15:04:00.000+08:00

had mj session wif helyn,wm,jw,jason+vinc yest...lost abit..hehe..but already very happy..coz for da 1st rd didnt win at all...than lucky 2nd rd sis came back..perhaps she brought back some luck wif her also..i started to win..hehe~ tks..!!

went 85 wif helyn after tat..coz we kinda play till skip dnr..than she need to wait for sometime till her dad come pick her up..da rest gotta go back..except jw who went out..coz they all stay on da other side of da island...=P tks for coming over guys..another game next wk..? nt my hse again lar..wait haf to travel far far...

lyn came over to my place after "dinner"..coz tink her family went to their relative's hse haven yet going back...had a chat wif her..show her my pics..talk abt relationship..haiz..she kinda understand y i kept saying sometings r really hard to forget..especially when u r given someting so gd..so unforgettable..u r brought up so high..than suddenly fall so low..n when u start climbing again...u still haven reach da height tat u haf reached b4...haiz..dunno lar..

starting to feel bit akward...tats wat i told lyn...jus hope some ppl will jus realise tat they need to stop some talking...its da best for nw...if nt..my skin cant be any thicker le..guess i mite haf go hide toilet again..haha..kidding kidding...dun take it to heart hor..!!

waiting for my sis to wake up..so we can continue watch date wif vampire part 1+2 tat we brought tat day...sianz...tink i go g-bing lehz...ciaoz..

tests sux...

2005-02-16T23:36:00.000+08:00

changed my blog song le..nice..?? hehe...didnt know jay got tis song till da ktv session wif da gals..=D tks to jh again..coz he help me upload de...

got some misunderstanding/miscom tis morning wif da guys..hmz..my fault actually..eh..hard to explain..jus some morning calls n my morning "qi"...haha..sry guys...!! thanks for da morning call niways..if nt sure late for test de..sorry if im too harsh in my words...=P was feeling bit pak chek due to insufficient slp...haha...fatigue ahz..causes unstable emotions...haha...=P shall nt talk abt human factors le..

got 2 test 2day...1 in da morning e other @ abt 3plus..didnt really gif my 100%...though i tried to study midnite...wasnt really in da study mood..was "fa die-ing" most of time..haha..niways...jus hope tat can pass can le..human factor was kinda killer in some ways...coz da last Qs is really tinking Qs can..nt in tutorial or notes de...

hmz..been making some1 upset....didnt know tat da feeling is still there..feeling bit guilty...really sry tat tings haf to stay tat way...sry if ive been doing da wrong stuff..leading u into da wrong way...hope u find ya happiness...tks for all da tings...

still stuck wif da specs...sianz...

hmz..tink me temper bit nt gd nowadays...attitude also..hmz..time for some improvements...

ciaoz..

2005-02-15T23:24:00.000+08:00

hehe...went to took neoprint on our vday outing @ orchard...!!

2005-02-15T02:22:00.000+08:00

spinnovex pic...took after da last day of our exhibition wif liew hui sing,,,wear like ma chiam song kar like tat..hehe..but wat to do...standard attire...haha~

happy lunar new yr..!!

2005-02-14T23:58:00.000+08:00

heya...long time no blog le...bit lazy also..haha...btw...HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR..!!

- Happy Valentine's Day -

wat ive done da past days....

- spinnovex : my proj grp got silver award...!! congrats...!!

- materials test : hate it..!! damn idiot bang..!!! no time to study can...!!! arghz....................

- ktv session after test : 7 hrs of singing can..!! haha~ real shiok ah...

- renuion lunch + dnr : wif own family @ tis resturant @ great world

wif whole big family @ grams place

- CNY visiting : both grandma place + dad's cousin's hse

- movie wif poly frenz on da 1st day of CNY : constantine..nt a bad show..but..hmz...=/ got room

for improvement..haha~

- KTV wif attitudez gals + pei zi...like finally can..!! haha...though i tink k box is still better coz we

went to party world..but wat to do..there cheaper lehz..=P

- mj @ my place wif poly frenz..

hmz....bit lazy to blog but...real glad tat i manage to met up wif frenz tat i hadnt seen for sometime..hehe...played mj here n there..for a few days...=X hehe..didnt really win tat much..most of da winnings though da days were from blackjack @ da gu's hse..hehe...=D

went out wif poly frenz after QEM test 2day..kinda of singles club ba...oh ya..cant really say tat..coz helyn got join us..hehe..but hmz...really got bit sour inside my heart...kinda got bit tink of da past..but wat is over is over...hw i wish....there's some1 for me to dote...to love..to care for...some1 who can hug me when i need one...haiz..

went to see doc yest..coz of my big small eyes..coz when i went to buy my contacts..da person say my eyes kena inffection le..so gotta see doc for eye drops to kill bacteria..gotta wear specs for 2wks can..!! arghz...sianz...really damn unlucky can..recently health really cannot make it...sianz..tinking of going for a body checkup...but i got no enough $$...!! hw...?? maybe b4 i sign on ba...

1 more term n im going to grad for sch...(hopefully)...wat am i suppose to do..!!?? im gonna miss going to sch...all da laughters...da skipping classes...etc etc...im gonna miss da gang......

oh well...got 2 more test tis wk..wish me luck..!! ciaoz...

my leg is killing me...

2005-02-03T22:40:00.000+08:00

hmz..been bz wif FYP=final yr proj these few days...basically tis whole wk...haha..in da midst of SPinnovex...for those who dun know wat is it..its a time where SP show da most of projs to da public...

kinda so call helping da grp to rush da proj on mon...stayed overed at jh hse..along wif vinc n hq lar..didnt slp for da whole nite..i didnt really do much actually...jus help to read da diamensions..?? feel bit useless..haha...jus kidding..trying to contribute more..

got my first ever warning letter...!!! arghz..super du lan..really gotta buy a big big alarm clock le..haiz...one more term to go..hope nuting will go wrong last min..really hope to grad in april along wif da rest...been quite a fruitful last 2 sem actually...poly life seems to spice up bit more..luckily i changed class in yr2..if nt..haha..cant imagine wat am i nw..will still be hafing my "2-sided" character...? made more frenz....which i always hope to do so in poly...to haf some fun n meaningful memories of my poly life..

weared formal 2day...machum go song kah sia..black n white everywhere in sp campus..haha..coz got standard attire for exhibitors...warm too lor...coz da place where we were putting up our exhibition has NO AIR-CON....!! sianz...seems like da only place w/o air con...arghz...gotta wear heels somemore...lucky hq brough his club's fan over..if nt..haha..seems like every1 is crowding over to share da fun...hehe....

cpt tee [our proj supervisior frm rsaf] came down 2day...along wif edward pang..da branch head...nt bad..they were quite impress wif our proj..haha..all da "gong liao" must go to jh john...they were da ones going down to sbab to take da diamensions..do da pro e model sia..nt forgetting hq..whose lever model kept cant complete...due to some "unforseen circumstances"..haha...lalala..=P n vinc..who is nw trying to finish da simulation wif jh of coz..xing ku ni men le..=)

went pass da first round of judging also..haha..so happy...mite haf a high chance of getting an award..let's hope its at least a silver...!! hehe...~ please please judges...come again tmr...!! =D haf faith in it..coz da guys really put in alot of effort to make da simulation to come true.....

been going to CNY clothes hunting wif sisters again also..haha..bought tis nice 3 quatar pants at "mu" heeren..it look machum like kongfu type de...very nice...!!! haha..wanna see...?? go out wif me during CNY lar..haha...=P

gotta go finish up areo matl lab report le..if nt..tmr can become dead fish le...ciaoz..

boring...sickly me...

2005-01-29T17:04:00.000+08:00

sianz..hasnt been doing much lately...not tat i dun wanna update my blog..jus tat there's nuting interested to talk abt actually..haha..

due to da dumb fall last fri..hasnt been going out...stayed at home most of da time...really most of da time..go sch..than headed home str..didnt really attend lesson on thurs...though its a short day...went to see doc coz of flu...had it on wed..wasnt really feelin tat well than..sit car also feel very uncomfortable tat kind..slp didnt help much..so went to get 2 days mc..haha...but thurs got tat stats test @ 1700h..so went sch anyway..jus for da test..but lucky me..haha..sam drove his dad car..so got a ride home..no nid squeeze da dumb train...save $$ also..hehe..=P pocket really burn big holes these few wks..

been going out wif sisters for CNY clothes shopping also..sianz..cant buy my favs T-shirts n jeans..instead..got some other clothes lar..interested to know wat type of clothes...?? ask me out on CNY lor..haha..=P

dumb leg giving me probs also..tink i accidently hit my knee..coz it hurts too...kinda aching tat kind of feeling..but much better these few days le....coz been a couch potato...haha...oh ya..forgot to mention...was watching "Date with Vampire 3" for da whole wk till i finish it..haha..so nice can..u guys must go catch it...

nuting much to say le..getting bit bored at home actually..dun really like sat's tv program..nuting much to watch de...haiz..go play games..?? hmz..see hw ba...sis going out later..alone @ home again.........wat to do...ciaoz..

p/s : Happy Birthday LiTing..mine jus pass n urs come so fast liaoz..haha...Enjoy..!! Best Wishes..

humpty dumbty had a great fall...

2005-01-22T21:38:00.000+08:00

arghz...fall during blading yest...idiots who dunno hw to stand by da SIDE of da rd...stupid leaves..watever lar..!! haiz..shld haf been more careful...finally got my battle mark of da yr..haha...somehw slided n scap some skin off my leg there...

didnt wanna go out...so kinda..miss zi jian's 21st bd party...n pj's 21st bd chalet..!! if u guys r reading tis...im so sry guys..really dun wanna go out wif my leg like tat..haha..so ugly..n kinda bu fang bian walk also...tink coz da ting hardens liaoz..so kinda hurts when walking..like become worst than yest like tat...

has been looking forward to blading wif sis they all 2day de..end up nv go also..haiz...arghz..still tinking whether shld i go for da ocs commissioning ting tmr or nt..wearing no.3 wif my leg like tis..?? hmz...haha..maybe wrap it up or wat...?? see 1st ba...gif some feedbacks..??

back to games n more vampire show..!! haha..ciaoz...

p/s: wanted to upload my wound da pic..but scare wait gif little children see no nice..haha..jus kidding...

blade blade blade....

2005-01-16T18:00:00.000+08:00

heya..haha...long time no blog le..nuting much to tell anyway..was sch sch sch..all da way..hmz..ok..fine..miss some lessons here n there...late almost every other day..haha..i'm trying..nt to be late of coz..cant really afford to miss anymore lessons..not enough attendance already ah..n its only da first term of da sem...die ah die ah...haha...

gotta try to understand wat all da dumb lectures r abt le...hmz..need some study sessions to do tutorials lehz..dun wanna forward at da very last sem of sch...haiz...=/

blade blade blade...i love blading.....any1...?? haha...will be..or already started...blading wif sisters n frenz every sat...hehe..oh ya..bought my rollar blade..hehe..happy happy happy...

been eating too much recently too..hmz..gonna cut tat down too..haha..=P

sometimes..life is nt as perfect as u tink it is...relationship aint as nice as u tot it can be...frenz may not always be there when u need....maybe im da one nt gd enough..?? hmz..a new yr..but nt a very gd start...oh well..."when da boat reaches da end of bridge...it will naturally go str"..?? i hope so....

ciaoz..

nuting better to do..

2005-01-03T13:38:00.000+08:00

sianz...nw in sch..nuting to do..an hr break n ive already taken my lunch..haha..so bored...

wat did i do for count down...

half day in sch...was late in da morning..as usual..after which went for a 5hrs ktv session wif da guys @ k box cine..hehe..had some fun there...especially when hq bought his gf..hehe..we didnt know at first tat he's bring his gf..but than..dunno wat happen..during the session..we so happen to caught him holding hands wif da gal..so as usual..da peps were making fun of him..haha..even till 2day..haha..but it was really a scene...=P

went to meet liting n yuda after tat..walked from cine to parklane to look for them..but haben even reach there they called me..say they'll meet me @ tis ulu rd rite after macdonald hse...lucky met there..coz it rained heavily after tat..but we manage to run to kopitiam to haf my dnr..was so hungry..haha..than went down to meet da rest @ city hall mrt..tot there will be a crowd..but who knows...only got da 3 of us + 2lt ridwan + 2lt zul..da rest didnt turn up..haiz..was pretty disappointed..but nvm..still had fun anyway..played @ da arcade for a while..haha..had a little "ticket" tingy happening..=X shall go there again...!!!

count down n esplande..than went to catch a movie "meet da fockers"...met into some of my frenz..haha..so happen to catch da same movie..after which we went to newton to have our supper..?? or breakfast..?? niways...jieyi n some west clts came down also..after which caught da first train back home..was super tired..haha..slpt da whole day n woke up in da nite...=P

my new yr resolutions...

1) try nt to be late for sch..??
2) spend more time wif my frrenz..i meant attitudez..polymates..ncc frenz
3) cheong for da rest of ncc activities..
4) find some1 who will cure of loneliness...^_^
5) score some nice grades for my last sem...
6) excerise regularly...!!!
7) eat less...which i tink is quite impossible...haha..=P
8) save some money..quite broke recently...=/

shld haf more ba...haha..shall update again..haf to go for class le..ciaoz...=)

2005

2005-01-01T23:12:00.000+08:00

Wishing All a Very Happy & Blessed 2005....!!